Mobile-Net >>> Goes Autis..!!! =p

My day was started with rehearsal for Ronald V Gaghana-moslem show at Dharmawangsa hotel.
Anyway, I was pretty shocked there because, from all 11th models, there were only 3 female models whom are Truly Indonesian!! The rest of course came from another country. Wow. Dominated by The Bule's" on our own country; I thought I was the only one who kept in silence' Read: unbelievable face, complaining-alone by myself, of course*
But then one by one, not only my mates, even the choreographer and the booker' from the agency was complaining as well! Whahahaaa....
Well, I still don't know what's the exact' reason by doing these all. I mean lucky for some of us , Indonesian models whom still get the job (yah, walaupun memang kalo rejeki pasti nggak akan kemana' sih..)
But what about the others who don't??
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Hmmpph', okay. Enough bout' The Bule's" thing. I still carried the sour-mood up until we're finished. My bad, though.
So after the show was finito', I felt like I need to chill' or just sit-down a while, somewhere. And there goes my fave' place : Starbucks! he he... I went there with my gilrfriends (include my manager-the work's done anyway-), Jesyca and Yui. Hmm... Having my Greentea Frappucino, and guess what, my idea was came up for having a chit-chat together. But when the conversation was turned into Blackberry & Mobile net thing'; we're stopped. Yeesss, like, reaallllly, really stopped our conversation and then having our own mobile-thing!!! Oh.My.God!
It was suddenly all turned out to be The Autis' world of Mobile-Net.
Me & Jesyca were using BB, and Yui, she got her own mobile-thing. Gosh'...
We brought these 'Chat & Messenger' things up until we moved to Pisa Cafe; believe me, we're still doing it. huahahaaa.... ^o^
It was like we have our own-world & space! when I realized this; I took some picture of us; well Jesyca did it to me as well; eewwwwh". lol.



















**Autis no.1, no.2 & no.3**


















Nah, can you imagine that we were really did these thing til' the battery's drop-dead low???! Yesss for the three of us. Hak hak... This was 23.15 pm, almost 4 hours!! hahahaa.... Beware all, Mobile-net can really waste your time! Seriously!
Right after we stopped, the chat was over as well. How funny it is, knowing that we were kinda' wasted our energy on our mobile-phone & almost no-talk between us. We all just laughed out loud there; paid our bill, and went home! Hihihi..... What a day to waste'. . .
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Gosh'...

Nothing special today, just had a fitting for show, and tried to fix & get my ID, License n' cards back. Well, unfortunately I still can't get my ID back today, cos' Kelurahan said the machine that used to make ID cards, is out of order a.k.a not working. They said they're gonna fix it today, thats why I have to go back there on the next day. *gross*
It means: No ID card. I still can't get my license back yet. I still can't get my ATM card back yet. I still can't let my Wallet' go-yet.
Too many things there.. Yesterday I asked apologize to my friend because I lost one of his precious thing inside my wallet. Althou' he said its alright & he can get another one-back for me, but still the feeling isn't cool enough yet. If I can be honest, i don't want the new one, I want the same old one! =(
hik..

So this is the reason why I feel so grumpy' today. I still didn't get anything from today. Not even my ID card (the most important). hhhhh... hate this.

...In Memoriam : My Wallet...

Rest in peace: my red-wallet. (or, at least it was looked like this'..) =(

I lost my wallet. Yesterday night, at Mulia hotel, yep. My Red-wallet's gone now. Hik..
I still can't believe it why he/she stole it. I put my bag in the backstage, I knew there were lot of people there including models. But when it came to the blocking for closing-time, all models went on stage; and yes, that was the right time to steal!
At first, i didn't realize that it was stolen. because all my mobile-phone, ipod, they're all fine.

When I was about to buy some cake, I noticed that it's gone already. I searched through all rooms (for makeup) & backstage. Called my mom, checked on my car, and it was Zero.
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I hate this. It's not about the cash, but all the things" inside. They're mean so much for me.. :'(
Almost all things are from those who are special. I cried only because of that..

Pagi ini kita ke kantor polisi untuk urusan semuanya. Nggak habis pikir aja.., kenapa ada orang yang sejahat itu. Pernah nggak mereka mikir kalau barang yang diambil itu berarti banget buat sang pemilik???
Hhh'... ya sudah lah... i have to let it go. Although I know it's going to be difficult, cuma bisa berdoa aja mudah2an seorang" yang mencuri dompetku itu segera sadar, biar nggak lama jadi pencuri-nya'..
T_T

First day of a'...20 yo-girL-

Whoaaaa... So It's my first day being 20 years old girl! Haha...Cute.
My friends asked How is it being 20??
--Well, I just laughed out loud-- Honestly I don't know what to say, I'm just happy thats all.!^^ Hmm...but being 20, somehow I feel a bit different on how do I face the problems, or seeing things from my point of view. A Lil' bit calm-down I guessed. ha ha.
Well, more mature is the thing" here.
And by the world of 20' I know there are more.....problems ahead me. It makes me remember what my friend has said to me; "Things won't get any easier, but they will get better"
For sure it is, I agree. =)
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Anyway!, I only had a fitting for an annual show today, then I'm free! Yess...Yesss... We're planning to go for a movie after all. Eric set-up almost everything, he even bought me & Yui our food first, cos' actually we're late for a couple of minutes, because the fitting was late (they're having their lunch first; uh-huh) and the traffic at Bundaran HI.
I had fun today, yippiiie...!!
Then we shopped, I bought stuffs for fashion-thing', and Jessie-she got her new Sunglass (nggak mau kalah yaa!) too!
*we took our photo together there*******
Hihihi.. now Jessie looks like a sexy-teacher' there! ^-^
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Nah, then the idea just came out. Cause we're all had a free...time; we're thinking about taking my pic with my new Greenie-Retro' somewhere! oh my God.
as usual, me & blothel-Ric are always like this. All about the ideas. haha.. So we stopped at Adorama menteng, then went to the upstairs; Eric took some of the pictures there!
Ooooh yeaaa...I had fun! hahaha... I can't tell how much I love my new Green-Neon' right now ^^ It's just keep us alive with its Neon-color !!!

Take a look at some of the pictures,, :)









=====================================*Viva for my first-day of the big Two-O's...!!* lol--

B'day Bash--errr...nope? werking! haha..-

Phewhh'... Wait. first of all, let me pray to the Lord (well, i mean just say thank you sich* haha)
Thanking Him for giving me such a beautiful life here. ^^

Yeap. On my birthday-nite' last day I only slept like 1,5 hours, despite Eric's call! Me myself too-just didn't feel like wanna go for bed- *ahaha..emang dasar niatnya mau menikmati hari lahir, narcis deh"*
So........! Been thru my day by working, I still had a fashion show yesterday. Anyway I got nothing to do, though. I didn't feel like going out for a party or to super-celebrating it.
Eric has told me days before that we're going to go somewhere to celebrate it, well i didn't have any idea so guessed what, we're end-up at Shangrila hotel, my place for the Show', ate our dinner & went home! ahaha...
I got a bunch of Flower bouquet from my lovely Mom, Yui, Jesyca, and of course Eric, he gave me a white rose with this 'Green-Retro' Sunglass" hanged there!!! Weww--- KewL Blothel!!---
Can't help myself not to wear that-straight away- even thou' I know it's late in the nite! ha ha....
*picture.picture.picture!* =p
And Oh! Windy, the designer, came-up and brought me a box of Mini-Cupcakes with tiny little candles above ^^! I just knew I'd love 'em =) so sweet of him did that to me.
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My day was so simple, but I know it meant vewy' much to me, cos' I was there with my people, shared happiness and love as well. Here I come 20...!!
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Here are some pics' of us yesterday...*

Hihihi...














Look at my Retro green glasses!!

Back to meet those' kinda person-- aha..ha--

So., last night. While I was preparing myself to do a rehearsal for show (which is today-).
And believe me, I already knew this will happened. Huh.
Anyway, we're working in a world full of fame. So that's why we have to deal with the people, and the work-hazard. Yeap, I met one of my working hazard today. Rumpiiii..!!!
Haha.. yes.. yess.. these rumpi' people, they'll never stop trying to ask for things. Unfortunately those things are actually not their business
for sure. But like my friend said tome, its a working hazard. Especially for those who work in this fame-world full of entertainment. We're like; sharing our privacy here. (yang rasanya bener2 bikin marrrraaaahh..!! arrgh) =p
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Yah.., nothing I do but smile or just speak one-or-two sentences anyway. I'm always on my "Do not disturb me!" mood everytime I faced the time' ^-^hihi..sorry.
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Okay. Let get prepared for today's Fashion Show!!! Whoopaa'! ^^

Chillin' time. .

--Joanna Wang's music playing--
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Hmm.... got the new CD today. I'm in love with the girl's voice. Joanna Wang. I didn't realize that she has the same age like me! haha.
I got her song from a friend. A very special friend of mine. He sent me Joanna's song, Lost In Paradise. God I'm love with it ^^. He called it a Lazy jazzy voice, and yes I agree. She got something in her voice, which I called an attitude'.
So now I keep on listening to the CD everywhere. hihi... seriously getting addicted. =p
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Huwaahh.. Been struggling myself in this very hectic-world these day. I feel so tired now, 3 hours fell to sleep after Jogja yesterday.
Too many stories happened, I just don't know how to start to write all. phewh'.. But despite all those good or grumpy things; Thank God, work has been fun, steady, and cool.
It's get on high-season anymore..and so we are ready to get ourself busy again! yippiiee...
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Report.,,--Discrimination Part II--,,.

Yeaaappp.. I've got lots of news to report. haha.
It's been a month since my last rep- about the discrimination part I ^^,
I never expect it's gonna happened again (and againnn *errrggh*)
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uuughh... kasihan sekali yah... Negara kita ini.., harii giniiii masih ada..gitu yang namanya 'sensi" sama kaum' sendiri =O!! I'm getting used to it now.. he..

Okie. No need to tell who or when or what occasion was that; I was there, anyway. And! My friend just told me her story (really, just a couple minutes ago =p)..
So she went to one audition' for show this morning, well it's quite far enough from "south"^^and when she stepped in; the only thing she got was "the lOOk" that said "siapa elu... we don't need the local/even mix face, today we're only care for those Bule` face, girl..sorry"
God damn... For sure it is a Discrimination!
gila yaa... disini yang denger aja bete---apalagi yang ngejalanin??!

Pfff".... Be cool yah dear friend.. I know the feeling very well kok.. =)
It happened to everybody as well.., not only for 'modeling' world but that's also happened to other kinda' job here.
My friend said this is Indonesia.. We can only watch 'em. Mental bangsa terjajah..kasihan yah..^^ padahal SDM kita sendiri banyaaak sekaliiii... and we are far more..talented than them' =)
Too bad.
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Diskriminasi.Diskriminasi.errgh.

Okay. Been very damn-long weeks..err..months (maybe) since I wrote the last post here. Oh My Lord. H.E.C.T.I.C months. . .!!!! arrrggghh---- Lot of things happened anyway.., in fact they're a bit too much to remembered now; *sighed* exhausting. ha ha...=)

I just thought about some people..who put their position just like on the top" of everyone. I'm talking about our kinda people here, who lives in our own country. We're living here among all the 'latah' people. Well, like few days ago; I thought it was only me, being a little bit too-sensitive about the show., but then I found that the other local models were feeling the same way too. ^^ There's a Big-different- more like a 'Gap' between us, all crews, including the models as well. We're all came from different hometown & country.
We know the word "Racist", right ?? . . .Yeah, it was more like that. And if I can be honest, I hate them all. What's the problem with us whom waiting for make-up to start, but when we knew (yes we knew it very well) that those international make-up artists were able to do the makeup-thing', they didn't even look at us whom Indonesian yaaa!! Ha! They're just worked it for the other international models. *gross*
I can see their expression' when looking at us. Okay, it might be easy to ignore that.
But can you imagine why were they doing those kind of treat' to us???
>>> Because the 'center-one' (yang artinya sang petinggi, main artist-nya) whom started all of those 'racialist' thing. . .>>> Too bad yah... He should be the one who bring 'peace for all of us. Hmm for me it was enough to gave such respect" on him... =)
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We live in Indonesia, we work here, we got the tittle in here too; no matter how bad our country is, still can we show some respect on ourself? Kok malah men-dewa-kan negara lain... yang jelas2 ngga ada taste" art-nya sama sekali dalam menjalankan fashion show. . . ???
Diskriminasi. Yeapz...
Once again; Too bad.. I am feeling bad for these kinda' people.

Etos kerja...Etos kerjaaa...e.t.o.s---k.e.r.j.a ...!!! *errr*

Bravo young people..!.. 'yang selalu bilang bahwa etos kerja anak muda itu efektif, bagus berencana kritis, bla..bla...bla...' Bravooo... *HA.
Can I tell 'em about something? Well.., Do they understand about what is a Time-Management??
uh... I dunno whether they've ever learned it at school or their parents or anything. But, the point is; I Don't See That IN These Youngster's world.
Yuph.., let me tell you a story. There is this "production/group/community/whateva" booked me for a job; out of province-.
So the schedule was already confirmed since the last Monday, 4 days ago. The day' will be in the middle of some-hectic' schedule (for this week). We already told 'em to give us the full-reports according to the job, everything; tickets for flights,,, accommodation,,,and stuffs. pokoknya kalo ke luar kota persiapan pasti lebih hectic lah ya.
Kenapa yaaa...nggak booking tiket dari 4 hari lalu begitu kita sudah confirm??
It doesn't mean they have power to ruin my own schedules; and switch 'em like they want; Helloooo...I'm working here...eee... Beside they're already know my confirmed-schedule. Arrange' dooong........ =/
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makannya kalo mau kerja ya kerja yg bener dong... sebagai anak muda kan harusnya tunjukin kalo bener2 idealis atau fokus bekerjaaa... mana mana manaaa..?? =p

My-today's Fun-Meeting!!

Hmm.. Back from my-meetings' day today.
Feeling content now..,, dunno what happened. But maybe I should say it is like a refreshing-progress =)... I met my friends on BDI (Buddha Dharma Indonesia) this afternoon and we talked bout many things. *phewwh'..* Cool. They've built an Open-School at 'Kawasan Megamendung, Bogor. I watched the video..and it was such a happy-feelings that I've got.
It made me think about all.. Why can't we do things like that?
Despite all medias or people who said or talked about 'global-warning' only. but these friends of mine (I'm not talking about religion ya), they have started things first.!!
and to be honest it inspired me a lot (and should be the same for others). Such a minor" community that we got here.
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Anyway, I stopped for a while at their place. I even saw them praying as well.
So I thought, how come in here we don't have any groups or community like them? No-need to shout out loud 'bout this; we only need to take care all of these Youth potential people; because they are special; they got skill, they work as well but they're only can hope for everything to live better.

Weewhhh I still have my homework for working out the paper here. ^-^...

Slip of a sickness".

*gosh...'* what a gossiper. this is the start of our poor'tainment-world. Ha..
I know it's a part of the life, risk for us to take by being involved in such an entertainment world. But hey hellows there...I'm always thinking whether those group of 'running & chasing' people" should be called as journalists..?!! ---oops. nope. sorry to say, they don't belong to the job. They can't even explain to us what it is; a journalist??

Can you explain to me is there any special training for all infotainment-journalists?? or maybe the only thing' that they could ever do is just run and chase and waiting to catch--then asking some dumb' question..? ha ha.. then I should say Poor-you guys.
cause y'all don't even know how to help our people to get better, for some point of living.
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If you ask me whether this is such a personal-experiences of mine; well yes it is. Not only me, anyway; but I've been heard all of those 'grumpy' confessions, talking about them (the paparazzi/any kinda thingy').

just a slice' of empathy...

*hmm… Have been gone for some-moments.., found some more things...

When you have to put yourself in one or some situation by yourself; like, you do the things which actually-you’ve been used to do it with other people, but now you have to do it alone. No-companion, just on your own; it must be felt a bit awkward. Need some time to get used to it, and it’s not that simple as turning your head on the other-side. You need that’ patience, supports, and hope. =)

Well I saw her. She’s been trying hard to handle that. *she’s my friend, one of the closest-one’…* by the look on her eyes, me, and us –some of the best-mates- could see the sadness in her. Some of her stories for being such a ‘grown up’ person have been passed by now. She has to get used to this situation. She’s on her own now, working out things by herself to achieve.

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The truth about 'judging' =)

I have one friend of mine, he's a makeup artist & he used to doing my make-up 'thing once a week, for my regular "side-job".
When I first met him I almost ensured myself that he might be just the same...like others. I mean for the 'identity' and one more thing, for his mind or his point of living the world. I thought he was the same like other makeup artists that I know. //wait-don't get me wrong; I'm not gonna talk bout other people's business yah; this is for another topic" ^^//
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I was having myself on a bad-mood that time. Not to mention it was my first day doing the side work., well yess I felt such an awkward' feelings for being there; cos I was really hope that I didn't have to do this, before I change my point of view by took it for my own savings-haha*
That was the time when I knew I was totally wrong. I was being a snobbish one, who thought like I must be the poorest one-in the world. Nobody knows what/how was it feel.
>>> He, is really a He". =p . Yup! He's a man, straight one. I couldn't believe that I almost claimed him for a gay' one; but nope. He really is a man. ha ha! How shameful...

But then again while we're waiting for me to start, me & mom was having chit-chat with him. (well mostly I just heard both of them share things, though =p)
And!
He told us that apparently there's some reason why was he taking job as a makeup artist. His mother, she is sick and need somebody to take care of her. Check up, then Re-check up again; with sort of condition they have; He decided to resign from his main job.
(OhMyGod) He works on an Oil-department at Singapore. He's a Diploma! and he was in his 'so-Fine' position. It's his dream which he always wanted to achieve.
He dedicated himself to take care of his mother; thats why he quited. It was a decision-wise; he said. Guess what;
basically he doesn't know how to do make-up at all; and never in his mind that he'd take the job as his current profession till now.
He has no choice. His closest friend & this is near his house as well; all gave him the same advice.. Make up artist is only for more of his income...to save.
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It was for him too for the first time there. It's a Pressure behind him. *and I swear I knew how it felt*
He told me no-longer after that he realized that this is the life he has to take. Reflected back he knows his mom would needed him too.
By then, he was able to work his job as a makeup artist.
In fact, his previous office has told him for whenever he wants to come back; he's already work. =)
Besides, I just know too..that he's an active-volunteer at UNDP. The way he speak his mind; such a smart persona. Yet he even got another diploma for Medical-development for Animal.!.
Wow... >> I even asked question about taking care of my pet << and he was very kind on giving me lots of advices about Volunteering.
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*gosh.... How shameful I am. This is really true. Don't ever judge any books by it's cover.
It's Totally a Snobbish' thought.
I guess we all can learn from this; I'm sure there'll be another stories there..thousand stories behind somebody's great-life.
and I will keep myself on learning, for sure!! ^-^

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//Track on : " Gabriel by Lamb
" Heaven by Lamb
" Sunrise by Yeasayer //

-hm...gotta pull 'em out of the head I guess..=)-
Looking back 5 years from now, remembering how did I make my decision to reach my dream.
*by the way I'm now in the mid' between all my senior-on modeling- I call 'em all The Mrs'.he he.*
Some of them were asking me back then. again 5 years ago. The question was about what will be my target to achieve; for the future day. I said I wanna be a professional model! ^^
Such a big decision it was; for a 14 years old girl. And was really different than today. Modeling world wasn't as big like nowadays before. People would called it as a hobby; not a profession.
While me when I was in my agency; one of the booker asked the same question. He shocked. haha... 'ha..? keluar dari sekolah formal??..terus mau jadi apa kamu nanti?!'
--I hate him so much that time. =p --
I was only answered "mau jadi model" & then left. God..., how come there's a person like him in this world; and I thought; "hell yeah, he got his diploma right..? well it only led him to be a booker; my-booker!" *hihi... excuse my language*
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It was just one of another grumpy' things. I can tell I often hear those kinda' stories too... But mostly they ended the decision by following the parents'; or just let it flow... some of them confessed, on becoming Nothing.
*phewwh...* How hard it is...to survived; or to speak-their minds out.
Sometime situation could be one of the biggest difficulties as well.
But I guess, there will always be a change in every dream that we wished.. How strong and patient' we are; is the main point. There's always risk in every choice, right?
And to make that choice, we need to be brave-enough, to speak them out.
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Flu....Flu...Flu.......

Gosh---I'm so...sick. Really sick. This Flu got worse. Although I've had 'em since 2 days ago. But it was--FAST!! *betebetebeteee*
I thought I'll never gonna say Hi' again to my 'weakness' since kiddo. =(
but then it appeared yesterday...huhuuuu...'. Tiredness, busy-things to do and think about; that's exactly what made me got this. Uuurrgghh*moody-face*
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And what was that which made my voice-gone away so fast?? --ha ha... My job today! =O guess what, I've this launch D&G show @ Grand Indonesia today. And, it wasn't just like the regular-show. It was a Trunk-Mingling Show. pheeww... Mingle..Mingle..and mingle. We all stood there having ourself chat' with all guests, fashionistas, and some Boss....for.... 2 Hours!! ohMyGod---it was horrible---I'd prefer to go on the catwalk doing 10 outfits than having myself on lobbying. hikhik..

While my voice is already a 'crappy'voice; it became worse and worse because of this kinda show. hiyaaaaa'..... Poor-me. I lost my voice-and it's 85 % total gone!
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Crap" ugly things in my morning timeee.. da da daa.'

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*heegghh..* crap. Kinda bad-start" on a day.
I was awake with my internet still on..and then..!! I read this' message on my posted-wall--it was asking bout my relationship with my Bf. Ouucchhh.. Common... I've been asked for the similar' question like that lately; "although I know that this is the risk', but I'm trying to get my peace of mind hereeee...
//we're still together yesss dahleeenk"... =p But it's usual to have such problem like that. I mean, those crappy' infotainments are just the same--they like to have some gossip (mostly the bad' one) and..unfortunately, on the management-side, most of 'em are also like to use this kinda situation" to promote their New artist/talents!!//
*well; I've shut myself-up for this. ^^*
I just don't get it. We're minding our own business., just because one-another having the same business of our own, people just loved to make fun of that. *pffft!*
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If maybe they're (all kinda' public figure) really have something or in the middle of somewhere'; why can't people just let it?! It's okay to report that on the news/entertainment-channel; but it will be very nice if they just report it for once' a headline. Not interrupting their whole-activities and bugging and spying and interrogating all friends&relatives!!!
*Holy--Geez' I'm staring to get boiled"..=p*

pheww... Okie dokie..., I'm getting myself off now. Gotta go gotta gooo....on working =)
There are more important things to do...than to minding the crappy-things out" ^o^
Just like The Beattles 'song--- Let it be...Let it be..Let it be" (hihihi...) =)