--a slip of thoughts'--

There are times when I feel like a bit 'too-much' on working. There will always be some things we don't like in every job that we love. Like all the wise-men said; 'This is Life.., sometimes up, sometimes down..'

I've seen people having difficulties like this. Some handle it easily, some got themselves a bit too far.. It's a rough world we got here. Sometimes I find myself on hearing their confession. About truth, what lies behind their smiling-faces. I did nothing but silence and smile; reminding myself that sometimes I've been in the same position as well =)
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Unique things happen here. haha..

My Story Of me and My Bestfriend =)...

She's my friend. My close friend. I've seen her today. Something, felt a bit 'weird' on her. I don't know what it is..
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She's a young lady, some fresh teenage youngsters just like others (young-adult). All I know is, she lives in this Glamorous & Fame-world as well. Like mine. She's among those crowd. Works hard. nope; very..hard, for her Family. -but I know she does that for herself too-
For her passion; pride; her own glory'... Each time we met, I can say that she's trying to hide her real' feelings to everybody; even her bestfriend and her boyfriend. Shame..?..Nope. She has learned, although she's still learning it until now.
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She was on her shift' to work. at one place, a place that I would like to called People's Fame. She worked on a night shift; after midnight; I mean. I can see that she's kinda tired but she has to do the job. well-the job's only for 3-5 minutes tough'. *** I remembered, she used to hate the job. She doesn't even has any heart for it. But luckily she has a very supportive family. That's why at one night she was trying to accept her destiny; and believed that it was the best that she can do for this year..
Today she was tired; I guess. She's a bit confused' on doing the job. Basically she's ok. But I know that she was feeling bothered by that. Her own mistake.
She's made a Big Commitment. For some people, she's a bubbly-easy going' person; it's odd to see her as a person who actually loved being on a silence, thoughtfully.
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I just Hope she's going to be....tougher..
I'm feelin' proud of her as well. ^^

I Do'// a Real-wed?? or a Fake-one??? huh? huh??

I'm so pleased today.!! ^^ Got more plus thing' on what I always called-Professional-
Okay. There was a Lil' bit of Down-mood for it, but after all it's still fine.
*breath..*=== I started to work by 7 am today. Me & mom drove to Sultan Hotel, to Executive Club. I had a shooting & photo shoot for Wedding's commercial. It wasn't for a TV-commercial; but it will appear on Cinema (its like commercial' before you start watching the movie-=p), and in their Showroom, brochure, kinda that. Actually it is a Wedding-Ring. Hmm..yummy^^
At first I wasn't expecting much for today; cause the plan was we'll take the procession at the garden; an outdoor shoot! and it was raining. *eekkk* Oh Nooo.... I thought it would be a long...day today. Believe me-it was raining hard in the morning-
Luckily we asked for a 'Pawang-Hujan' to handle the rain, at least for a moment..well we couldn't expect much from him cause the rain was very heavy right?'=). So- Mister "Pawang" told us that he's gonna handle the weather but only until it reach 3 o'clock pm. Whoaa... it means we have to get hurry. We decided to skipped our Lunch-time in order to catch the time. *Sigh*

It really worked! The weather was changed suddenly into a daylight. So fast I guess. Cool.
But unfortunately, Mr.'Pawang' did it a little bit too-well. ha. The weather was turned into a really HOT weather! Oh My God we were suffering in our Bridal gown & suit ^^! and the sad thing for me is; My skin got burned by that. I really didn't expect that it'd be damn-hot. Not only me, though.. Richard-the Groom, and the other extras; we were getting Red on our skin ha ha haaa.... Funny. All I could do was wishing for the shoot to be done!! =p
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Above all, it was really fun. I'm happy doing my job. I'm grateful cause I did it professionally., and serious. And the best thing for me today is when I didn't care about my tan/reddish' skin by the Sunny super hot daylight" =p; but only focused on my duty' there^^, as a model* a bride I mean-hihi- we are teamwork here. If we do our job well, then we'll finished right on time.., and we did it! he he...
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*I can't wait to see it, must be very funny-and also odd' for me cause it was like a real-wedding day!! hi hi hi.. Plus! I've got the picture of me & the groom for the pre-wed', and the Certificate of Marriage as well!!!!! ^o^ wuhahahaaa...hohooo... I wonder what's it gonna be..* ^^

talking bout some things I don't like...err'

After 4 days on working; finally I.am.getting.exhausted. *hhhaaaahh..* >>> well let me explain bout' the exhausted thing's meant. It's just because these days there were things that we-me-I really have to fix. Some of them are part of my job;of course..=) and there are other things that also very important for the very next day--so we called it our step by step 'project' for the year.
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I remembered last couple of days ago (while we had shows to do), I was having a conversation with my friends at the backstage. We talked bout all things happened in our job-modeling-. Ha... Thank God it's not only me who sometimes got the 'bad-mood' on my own job; so..I'm not alone ha ha. When (some other times) we have to deal with those kinda weirdo' makeup or -whatkindofhairstyleisthis-; usually all we could do was being silence; or..looking at each other's makeup/hairdo; then after finishing makeup we're gonna start to laughed it. There's nothing we could do, well sometimes if it's not to messed (the makeup) some of us will fix/add it. =p naughty-yes..but it was just for our confidence!^o^ except--for the hairdo. Especially on Bridal-show; whooaaa.....there's nothing we can do about it. If it's a messed, then let it be messed-up like that. Otherwise we're just wasting our time trying to have it fixed. hi hi...

Well it's true what my parents said to me; there are things we don't like in every kind of job that we love. It will always be like that. But if we keep being good, stay in our way, then everything will be fine in the end. =)

>>>Now Playing : "All Bjork's album"--addicted once again--

God. It was awesomeee.. ^o^ I watched her concert. Bjork!! Oowh--- I've been waiting for such a long time for her to come!! Ha ha.. I'm playing her songs over and over again since then =D hi hi...
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For Indonesia--Jakarta; It was good. Great lighting!! I just stared at her as I watched the lights playing round-and round! aaaawwww..-So good!! Although she was sing for about 10 songs only.. Quite-Fast..but still not enough for the most of us (including me^^)
Oh-But I'm so happy cause she sang 'Pagan Poetry' & 'Joga' there!!! he he he...
I was hoping she would sing us her 'Isobel'.., but it didn't exist' till the end of the show. =(
But; after all! I'm satisfied of her concert today!! *well for myself-I don't really like being at any concert,though..=p Cause yesss it is too crowded.* But for Bjork I knew she was different, unique and weirdo kinda people-so... I was hoping there won't be too many people coming.. >> he he.. Wrong. Right after the show was about to start; I realized that lots n lots n lots of people are coming through!!! =O hahahaaa....
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~~COOL =)

Back again--after stayed alive for 24 hours yesterday!! hoaaa..

--Hmm...-- Write this' in the mid-of my shoot day =) >>> Phew... Yesterday I was totally having my day off! after 24 hours Total-awake and worked. Huah! ^^ ha ha.. We finished our Photo-folio' session at Eric's factory. It became a studio there ^o^ -->Yippiiee....

It was from 9 am to the next 9 am on the next day! We finito the shoot at almost 3 am; then I have to run to one of our TV-station at 3.30 >>> and started on air at 5. Finished; I was reached home at 6; well I didn't feel sleepy at all so I reached my car then Goooo to church. (owh--hey-I'm trying to be a nice girl here!! he he =p)
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Hi hi... I did feel sleepy during the mass. I was hurting myself back then to stayed-alive! ^^ heuuuu.....*
The only thing that I remembered is; I was fell asleep after reached home at about 9.30 am. Huaaammmhh...... It was yummy---before my bat's brother called me at 1 pm- he asked bout' his book. =)
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So.... Now I'm enjoying myself looking at the pictures that we've shoot last day. And waiting for the photo-shoot to start!! Bubye ^v^--

Kiong-Hee..... Rat's Year Arissseee... :)

"Happy Chinese New Year Dear All...!!! -Gong Xi fat Choi!- ^o^"
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~Kiong hee..Kiong hee; Angpao Na Lai.??~ yeap that's what I always been saying to everybody today; well pretty-much hoping that I'll get it'- bwahahaahaa... Mimiii..
I spent most of the day on chatting with mom today. I met my grandma' for wished her a 'kiong-hee', and as usual she made us Misoa & Babi Kecap' ^^- Yummy... A hope for a Live Long and Prosperity ..=)
>> Then we're carry on our chat again. As today's one of our 40 days-on fasting- for Paskah, so I choose to control my emotion more. Hope for the best to be wise & stable..hi hi.
We talked about all those job things.., all the meetings that we've had.., also all those payment' thing. *which quite made me remembering back about my stress & anemia things; ha.* We discussed about reality here, there, everywhere.., even we did have a small argue' back there. =)
Since there's only two of us here-brother has moved to the new house; this Lil' house turned a bit silence.. he.. Used to hear my brother's silly-jokes everyday ^^
Anyways.., today is a social-reality life. I have friends (and my close friends) chatted with me about life. Interesting; cause they teach me on how to face the rough-life with a strong heart. I'm facing 'them too here.
Just to remind myself that I'm not alone, me & my family are not alone on facing this chaotic' rough-life.. he... =)

Hwuaaah.. Terrible Headache! ='(

Really..really hectic. Hoossh..' Apparently there won't be any speech-for Eric's Exhibition. We thought it'd be too..formal (like government-people always do) =p.

So we changed the speech' into comment-only. And- more job for me is; regarding to Eric's plan on publishing his book of exhibition & photography, I have to write some 'Forewords' about how or why or hope for my bat's blothel =p Heeeh??--DeadLine pula!!! I only got 2 days left. Gosh..catch for some inspiration now..
>> Beside that; there's still more things on deadline. We did technical-meeting yesterday after-show; talked about my concept for photo shooting; targets, point of view, and stuffs.. Ughh I had this terrible headache and it even got worse by the dawn; *of course it is, I'm not sleeping at all heuuu..*

I'm a bit nervous. yep. nervous of many things here in mind. Let's see... heading up for the next-project, anything for the good reason of the future., he...it created some 'weirdo' feelings on me. ^^ Hope for the best; prepare for the worst. That's what my teacher had ever told me. ^^
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*owh--almost forgot. Mbak Amy sent me these photos (the other one I've posted on the side bar^^) this morning. Didn't realized that it has been out on the magz already. hi hi...*
.Captured by 'Marsio'.

counting on days...*year of earth-rat =p*

.My friend shared some stories with me. She said that this up-coming year (she's Chinese, so she celebrates Chinese New Year.) will be a hard year. Yesterday we were talking bout' lots n lots of things. *while we're waiting for the dinner-show of Arantxa Adi's private birthday party to be started--what more could we do except having those conversation??--haha.*
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We started dinner-very late. It was almost 10 pm last night. Well we can understand that; it's been raining so hard yesterday..floods everywhere; and of course- super damn-traffic on the road. And it was Friday! =x
ehm.. to be honest; I kinda felt a bit anxious; um..weird. =p >>>Of course I am; we were just sit on the table and chat' and lobbying and waiting for the next food to come. (ergh-I hate table manners--^^). Luckily we're together-all the models. I mean I'd prefer on doing the fashion show on the stage; than waiting in front of the Dine-table together. ^v^ heuu... too shy for it ^^'.
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Finito; drove myself home; and cleaning up makeup. Remembering what my friend has said to me- I agreed with her; this year is different. This year is harder., more complicated., more additional program to do., and tougher.
I guess we're all gonna face 'em this year. Some said if we keep being good, follow the path, hoping and praying and wishing for the best -despite working hard for sure- Everything will be fine =)
*hwaah.. I've been hoping for that too- hummpph..' susahnya keep being good;;hi hi..=p*

gotta go!! Gotta go!!! In the mid-of makeup for gathering show now. (their doing my 'eyelashes; putting the fake' one to go.. Ouch! sticky!! hi hi hi.. catch-ya-laytah" ^o^