Mobile-Net >>> Goes Autis..!!! =p

My day was started with rehearsal for Ronald V Gaghana-moslem show at Dharmawangsa hotel.
Anyway, I was pretty shocked there because, from all 11th models, there were only 3 female models whom are Truly Indonesian!! The rest of course came from another country. Wow. Dominated by The Bule's" on our own country; I thought I was the only one who kept in silence' Read: unbelievable face, complaining-alone by myself, of course*
But then one by one, not only my mates, even the choreographer and the booker' from the agency was complaining as well! Whahahaaa....
Well, I still don't know what's the exact' reason by doing these all. I mean lucky for some of us , Indonesian models whom still get the job (yah, walaupun memang kalo rejeki pasti nggak akan kemana' sih..)
But what about the others who don't??
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Hmmpph', okay. Enough bout' The Bule's" thing. I still carried the sour-mood up until we're finished. My bad, though.
So after the show was finito', I felt like I need to chill' or just sit-down a while, somewhere. And there goes my fave' place : Starbucks! he he... I went there with my gilrfriends (include my manager-the work's done anyway-), Jesyca and Yui. Hmm... Having my Greentea Frappucino, and guess what, my idea was came up for having a chit-chat together. But when the conversation was turned into Blackberry & Mobile net thing'; we're stopped. Yeesss, like, reaallllly, really stopped our conversation and then having our own mobile-thing!!! Oh.My.God!
It was suddenly all turned out to be The Autis' world of Mobile-Net.
Me & Jesyca were using BB, and Yui, she got her own mobile-thing. Gosh'...
We brought these 'Chat & Messenger' things up until we moved to Pisa Cafe; believe me, we're still doing it. huahahaaa.... ^o^
It was like we have our own-world & space! when I realized this; I took some picture of us; well Jesyca did it to me as well; eewwwwh". lol.



















**Autis no.1, no.2 & no.3**


















Nah, can you imagine that we were really did these thing til' the battery's drop-dead low???! Yesss for the three of us. Hak hak... This was 23.15 pm, almost 4 hours!! hahahaa.... Beware all, Mobile-net can really waste your time! Seriously!
Right after we stopped, the chat was over as well. How funny it is, knowing that we were kinda' wasted our energy on our mobile-phone & almost no-talk between us. We all just laughed out loud there; paid our bill, and went home! Hihihi..... What a day to waste'. . .
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Gosh'...

Nothing special today, just had a fitting for show, and tried to fix & get my ID, License n' cards back. Well, unfortunately I still can't get my ID back today, cos' Kelurahan said the machine that used to make ID cards, is out of order a.k.a not working. They said they're gonna fix it today, thats why I have to go back there on the next day. *gross*
It means: No ID card. I still can't get my license back yet. I still can't get my ATM card back yet. I still can't let my Wallet' go-yet.
Too many things there.. Yesterday I asked apologize to my friend because I lost one of his precious thing inside my wallet. Althou' he said its alright & he can get another one-back for me, but still the feeling isn't cool enough yet. If I can be honest, i don't want the new one, I want the same old one! =(
hik..

So this is the reason why I feel so grumpy' today. I still didn't get anything from today. Not even my ID card (the most important). hhhhh... hate this.

...In Memoriam : My Wallet...

Rest in peace: my red-wallet. (or, at least it was looked like this'..) =(

I lost my wallet. Yesterday night, at Mulia hotel, yep. My Red-wallet's gone now. Hik..
I still can't believe it why he/she stole it. I put my bag in the backstage, I knew there were lot of people there including models. But when it came to the blocking for closing-time, all models went on stage; and yes, that was the right time to steal!
At first, i didn't realize that it was stolen. because all my mobile-phone, ipod, they're all fine.

When I was about to buy some cake, I noticed that it's gone already. I searched through all rooms (for makeup) & backstage. Called my mom, checked on my car, and it was Zero.
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I hate this. It's not about the cash, but all the things" inside. They're mean so much for me.. :'(
Almost all things are from those who are special. I cried only because of that..

Pagi ini kita ke kantor polisi untuk urusan semuanya. Nggak habis pikir aja.., kenapa ada orang yang sejahat itu. Pernah nggak mereka mikir kalau barang yang diambil itu berarti banget buat sang pemilik???
Hhh'... ya sudah lah... i have to let it go. Although I know it's going to be difficult, cuma bisa berdoa aja mudah2an seorang" yang mencuri dompetku itu segera sadar, biar nggak lama jadi pencuri-nya'..
T_T

First day of a'...20 yo-girL-

Whoaaaa... So It's my first day being 20 years old girl! Haha...Cute.
My friends asked How is it being 20??
--Well, I just laughed out loud-- Honestly I don't know what to say, I'm just happy thats all.!^^ Hmm...but being 20, somehow I feel a bit different on how do I face the problems, or seeing things from my point of view. A Lil' bit calm-down I guessed. ha ha.
Well, more mature is the thing" here.
And by the world of 20' I know there are more.....problems ahead me. It makes me remember what my friend has said to me; "Things won't get any easier, but they will get better"
For sure it is, I agree. =)
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Anyway!, I only had a fitting for an annual show today, then I'm free! Yess...Yesss... We're planning to go for a movie after all. Eric set-up almost everything, he even bought me & Yui our food first, cos' actually we're late for a couple of minutes, because the fitting was late (they're having their lunch first; uh-huh) and the traffic at Bundaran HI.
I had fun today, yippiiie...!!
Then we shopped, I bought stuffs for fashion-thing', and Jessie-she got her new Sunglass (nggak mau kalah yaa!) too!
*we took our photo together there*******
Hihihi.. now Jessie looks like a sexy-teacher' there! ^-^
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Nah, then the idea just came out. Cause we're all had a free...time; we're thinking about taking my pic with my new Greenie-Retro' somewhere! oh my God.
as usual, me & blothel-Ric are always like this. All about the ideas. haha.. So we stopped at Adorama menteng, then went to the upstairs; Eric took some of the pictures there!
Ooooh yeaaa...I had fun! hahaha... I can't tell how much I love my new Green-Neon' right now ^^ It's just keep us alive with its Neon-color !!!

Take a look at some of the pictures,, :)









=====================================*Viva for my first-day of the big Two-O's...!!* lol--

B'day Bash--errr...nope? werking! haha..-

Phewhh'... Wait. first of all, let me pray to the Lord (well, i mean just say thank you sich* haha)
Thanking Him for giving me such a beautiful life here. ^^

Yeap. On my birthday-nite' last day I only slept like 1,5 hours, despite Eric's call! Me myself too-just didn't feel like wanna go for bed- *ahaha..emang dasar niatnya mau menikmati hari lahir, narcis deh"*
So........! Been thru my day by working, I still had a fashion show yesterday. Anyway I got nothing to do, though. I didn't feel like going out for a party or to super-celebrating it.
Eric has told me days before that we're going to go somewhere to celebrate it, well i didn't have any idea so guessed what, we're end-up at Shangrila hotel, my place for the Show', ate our dinner & went home! ahaha...
I got a bunch of Flower bouquet from my lovely Mom, Yui, Jesyca, and of course Eric, he gave me a white rose with this 'Green-Retro' Sunglass" hanged there!!! Weww--- KewL Blothel!!---
Can't help myself not to wear that-straight away- even thou' I know it's late in the nite! ha ha....
*picture.picture.picture!* =p
And Oh! Windy, the designer, came-up and brought me a box of Mini-Cupcakes with tiny little candles above ^^! I just knew I'd love 'em =) so sweet of him did that to me.
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My day was so simple, but I know it meant vewy' much to me, cos' I was there with my people, shared happiness and love as well. Here I come 20...!!
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Here are some pics' of us yesterday...*

Hihihi...














Look at my Retro green glasses!!

Back to meet those' kinda person-- aha..ha--

So., last night. While I was preparing myself to do a rehearsal for show (which is today-).
And believe me, I already knew this will happened. Huh.
Anyway, we're working in a world full of fame. So that's why we have to deal with the people, and the work-hazard. Yeap, I met one of my working hazard today. Rumpiiii..!!!
Haha.. yes.. yess.. these rumpi' people, they'll never stop trying to ask for things. Unfortunately those things are actually not their business
for sure. But like my friend said tome, its a working hazard. Especially for those who work in this fame-world full of entertainment. We're like; sharing our privacy here. (yang rasanya bener2 bikin marrrraaaahh..!! arrgh) =p
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Yah.., nothing I do but smile or just speak one-or-two sentences anyway. I'm always on my "Do not disturb me!" mood everytime I faced the time' ^-^hihi..sorry.
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Okay. Let get prepared for today's Fashion Show!!! Whoopaa'! ^^

Chillin' time. .

--Joanna Wang's music playing--
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Hmm.... got the new CD today. I'm in love with the girl's voice. Joanna Wang. I didn't realize that she has the same age like me! haha.
I got her song from a friend. A very special friend of mine. He sent me Joanna's song, Lost In Paradise. God I'm love with it ^^. He called it a Lazy jazzy voice, and yes I agree. She got something in her voice, which I called an attitude'.
So now I keep on listening to the CD everywhere. hihi... seriously getting addicted. =p
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Huwaahh.. Been struggling myself in this very hectic-world these day. I feel so tired now, 3 hours fell to sleep after Jogja yesterday.
Too many stories happened, I just don't know how to start to write all. phewh'.. But despite all those good or grumpy things; Thank God, work has been fun, steady, and cool.
It's get on high-season anymore..and so we are ready to get ourself busy again! yippiiee...
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Report.,,--Discrimination Part II--,,.

Yeaaappp.. I've got lots of news to report. haha.
It's been a month since my last rep- about the discrimination part I ^^,
I never expect it's gonna happened again (and againnn *errrggh*)
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uuughh... kasihan sekali yah... Negara kita ini.., harii giniiii masih ada..gitu yang namanya 'sensi" sama kaum' sendiri =O!! I'm getting used to it now.. he..

Okie. No need to tell who or when or what occasion was that; I was there, anyway. And! My friend just told me her story (really, just a couple minutes ago =p)..
So she went to one audition' for show this morning, well it's quite far enough from "south"^^and when she stepped in; the only thing she got was "the lOOk" that said "siapa elu... we don't need the local/even mix face, today we're only care for those Bule` face, girl..sorry"
God damn... For sure it is a Discrimination!
gila yaa... disini yang denger aja bete---apalagi yang ngejalanin??!

Pfff".... Be cool yah dear friend.. I know the feeling very well kok.. =)
It happened to everybody as well.., not only for 'modeling' world but that's also happened to other kinda' job here.
My friend said this is Indonesia.. We can only watch 'em. Mental bangsa terjajah..kasihan yah..^^ padahal SDM kita sendiri banyaaak sekaliiii... and we are far more..talented than them' =)
Too bad.
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Diskriminasi.Diskriminasi.errgh.

Okay. Been very damn-long weeks..err..months (maybe) since I wrote the last post here. Oh My Lord. H.E.C.T.I.C months. . .!!!! arrrggghh---- Lot of things happened anyway.., in fact they're a bit too much to remembered now; *sighed* exhausting. ha ha...=)

I just thought about some people..who put their position just like on the top" of everyone. I'm talking about our kinda people here, who lives in our own country. We're living here among all the 'latah' people. Well, like few days ago; I thought it was only me, being a little bit too-sensitive about the show., but then I found that the other local models were feeling the same way too. ^^ There's a Big-different- more like a 'Gap' between us, all crews, including the models as well. We're all came from different hometown & country.
We know the word "Racist", right ?? . . .Yeah, it was more like that. And if I can be honest, I hate them all. What's the problem with us whom waiting for make-up to start, but when we knew (yes we knew it very well) that those international make-up artists were able to do the makeup-thing', they didn't even look at us whom Indonesian yaaa!! Ha! They're just worked it for the other international models. *gross*
I can see their expression' when looking at us. Okay, it might be easy to ignore that.
But can you imagine why were they doing those kind of treat' to us???
>>> Because the 'center-one' (yang artinya sang petinggi, main artist-nya) whom started all of those 'racialist' thing. . .>>> Too bad yah... He should be the one who bring 'peace for all of us. Hmm for me it was enough to gave such respect" on him... =)
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We live in Indonesia, we work here, we got the tittle in here too; no matter how bad our country is, still can we show some respect on ourself? Kok malah men-dewa-kan negara lain... yang jelas2 ngga ada taste" art-nya sama sekali dalam menjalankan fashion show. . . ???
Diskriminasi. Yeapz...
Once again; Too bad.. I am feeling bad for these kinda' people.

Etos kerja...Etos kerjaaa...e.t.o.s---k.e.r.j.a ...!!! *errr*

Bravo young people..!.. 'yang selalu bilang bahwa etos kerja anak muda itu efektif, bagus berencana kritis, bla..bla...bla...' Bravooo... *HA.
Can I tell 'em about something? Well.., Do they understand about what is a Time-Management??
uh... I dunno whether they've ever learned it at school or their parents or anything. But, the point is; I Don't See That IN These Youngster's world.
Yuph.., let me tell you a story. There is this "production/group/community/whateva" booked me for a job; out of province-.
So the schedule was already confirmed since the last Monday, 4 days ago. The day' will be in the middle of some-hectic' schedule (for this week). We already told 'em to give us the full-reports according to the job, everything; tickets for flights,,, accommodation,,,and stuffs. pokoknya kalo ke luar kota persiapan pasti lebih hectic lah ya.
Kenapa yaaa...nggak booking tiket dari 4 hari lalu begitu kita sudah confirm??
It doesn't mean they have power to ruin my own schedules; and switch 'em like they want; Helloooo...I'm working here...eee... Beside they're already know my confirmed-schedule. Arrange' dooong........ =/
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makannya kalo mau kerja ya kerja yg bener dong... sebagai anak muda kan harusnya tunjukin kalo bener2 idealis atau fokus bekerjaaa... mana mana manaaa..?? =p

My-today's Fun-Meeting!!

Hmm.. Back from my-meetings' day today.
Feeling content now..,, dunno what happened. But maybe I should say it is like a refreshing-progress =)... I met my friends on BDI (Buddha Dharma Indonesia) this afternoon and we talked bout many things. *phewwh'..* Cool. They've built an Open-School at 'Kawasan Megamendung, Bogor. I watched the video..and it was such a happy-feelings that I've got.
It made me think about all.. Why can't we do things like that?
Despite all medias or people who said or talked about 'global-warning' only. but these friends of mine (I'm not talking about religion ya), they have started things first.!!
and to be honest it inspired me a lot (and should be the same for others). Such a minor" community that we got here.
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Anyway, I stopped for a while at their place. I even saw them praying as well.
So I thought, how come in here we don't have any groups or community like them? No-need to shout out loud 'bout this; we only need to take care all of these Youth potential people; because they are special; they got skill, they work as well but they're only can hope for everything to live better.

Weewhhh I still have my homework for working out the paper here. ^-^...

Slip of a sickness".

*gosh...'* what a gossiper. this is the start of our poor'tainment-world. Ha..
I know it's a part of the life, risk for us to take by being involved in such an entertainment world. But hey hellows there...I'm always thinking whether those group of 'running & chasing' people" should be called as journalists..?!! ---oops. nope. sorry to say, they don't belong to the job. They can't even explain to us what it is; a journalist??

Can you explain to me is there any special training for all infotainment-journalists?? or maybe the only thing' that they could ever do is just run and chase and waiting to catch--then asking some dumb' question..? ha ha.. then I should say Poor-you guys.
cause y'all don't even know how to help our people to get better, for some point of living.
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If you ask me whether this is such a personal-experiences of mine; well yes it is. Not only me, anyway; but I've been heard all of those 'grumpy' confessions, talking about them (the paparazzi/any kinda thingy').

just a slice' of empathy...

*hmm… Have been gone for some-moments.., found some more things...

When you have to put yourself in one or some situation by yourself; like, you do the things which actually-you’ve been used to do it with other people, but now you have to do it alone. No-companion, just on your own; it must be felt a bit awkward. Need some time to get used to it, and it’s not that simple as turning your head on the other-side. You need that’ patience, supports, and hope. =)

Well I saw her. She’s been trying hard to handle that. *she’s my friend, one of the closest-one’…* by the look on her eyes, me, and us –some of the best-mates- could see the sadness in her. Some of her stories for being such a ‘grown up’ person have been passed by now. She has to get used to this situation. She’s on her own now, working out things by herself to achieve.

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The truth about 'judging' =)

I have one friend of mine, he's a makeup artist & he used to doing my make-up 'thing once a week, for my regular "side-job".
When I first met him I almost ensured myself that he might be just the same...like others. I mean for the 'identity' and one more thing, for his mind or his point of living the world. I thought he was the same like other makeup artists that I know. //wait-don't get me wrong; I'm not gonna talk bout other people's business yah; this is for another topic" ^^//
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I was having myself on a bad-mood that time. Not to mention it was my first day doing the side work., well yess I felt such an awkward' feelings for being there; cos I was really hope that I didn't have to do this, before I change my point of view by took it for my own savings-haha*
That was the time when I knew I was totally wrong. I was being a snobbish one, who thought like I must be the poorest one-in the world. Nobody knows what/how was it feel.
>>> He, is really a He". =p . Yup! He's a man, straight one. I couldn't believe that I almost claimed him for a gay' one; but nope. He really is a man. ha ha! How shameful...

But then again while we're waiting for me to start, me & mom was having chit-chat with him. (well mostly I just heard both of them share things, though =p)
And!
He told us that apparently there's some reason why was he taking job as a makeup artist. His mother, she is sick and need somebody to take care of her. Check up, then Re-check up again; with sort of condition they have; He decided to resign from his main job.
(OhMyGod) He works on an Oil-department at Singapore. He's a Diploma! and he was in his 'so-Fine' position. It's his dream which he always wanted to achieve.
He dedicated himself to take care of his mother; thats why he quited. It was a decision-wise; he said. Guess what;
basically he doesn't know how to do make-up at all; and never in his mind that he'd take the job as his current profession till now.
He has no choice. His closest friend & this is near his house as well; all gave him the same advice.. Make up artist is only for more of his income...to save.
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It was for him too for the first time there. It's a Pressure behind him. *and I swear I knew how it felt*
He told me no-longer after that he realized that this is the life he has to take. Reflected back he knows his mom would needed him too.
By then, he was able to work his job as a makeup artist.
In fact, his previous office has told him for whenever he wants to come back; he's already work. =)
Besides, I just know too..that he's an active-volunteer at UNDP. The way he speak his mind; such a smart persona. Yet he even got another diploma for Medical-development for Animal.!.
Wow... >> I even asked question about taking care of my pet << and he was very kind on giving me lots of advices about Volunteering.
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*gosh.... How shameful I am. This is really true. Don't ever judge any books by it's cover.
It's Totally a Snobbish' thought.
I guess we all can learn from this; I'm sure there'll be another stories there..thousand stories behind somebody's great-life.
and I will keep myself on learning, for sure!! ^-^

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//Track on : " Gabriel by Lamb
" Heaven by Lamb
" Sunrise by Yeasayer //

-hm...gotta pull 'em out of the head I guess..=)-
Looking back 5 years from now, remembering how did I make my decision to reach my dream.
*by the way I'm now in the mid' between all my senior-on modeling- I call 'em all The Mrs'.he he.*
Some of them were asking me back then. again 5 years ago. The question was about what will be my target to achieve; for the future day. I said I wanna be a professional model! ^^
Such a big decision it was; for a 14 years old girl. And was really different than today. Modeling world wasn't as big like nowadays before. People would called it as a hobby; not a profession.
While me when I was in my agency; one of the booker asked the same question. He shocked. haha... 'ha..? keluar dari sekolah formal??..terus mau jadi apa kamu nanti?!'
--I hate him so much that time. =p --
I was only answered "mau jadi model" & then left. God..., how come there's a person like him in this world; and I thought; "hell yeah, he got his diploma right..? well it only led him to be a booker; my-booker!" *hihi... excuse my language*
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It was just one of another grumpy' things. I can tell I often hear those kinda' stories too... But mostly they ended the decision by following the parents'; or just let it flow... some of them confessed, on becoming Nothing.
*phewwh...* How hard it is...to survived; or to speak-their minds out.
Sometime situation could be one of the biggest difficulties as well.
But I guess, there will always be a change in every dream that we wished.. How strong and patient' we are; is the main point. There's always risk in every choice, right?
And to make that choice, we need to be brave-enough, to speak them out.
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Flu....Flu...Flu.......

Gosh---I'm so...sick. Really sick. This Flu got worse. Although I've had 'em since 2 days ago. But it was--FAST!! *betebetebeteee*
I thought I'll never gonna say Hi' again to my 'weakness' since kiddo. =(
but then it appeared yesterday...huhuuuu...'. Tiredness, busy-things to do and think about; that's exactly what made me got this. Uuurrgghh*moody-face*
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And what was that which made my voice-gone away so fast?? --ha ha... My job today! =O guess what, I've this launch D&G show @ Grand Indonesia today. And, it wasn't just like the regular-show. It was a Trunk-Mingling Show. pheeww... Mingle..Mingle..and mingle. We all stood there having ourself chat' with all guests, fashionistas, and some Boss....for.... 2 Hours!! ohMyGod---it was horrible---I'd prefer to go on the catwalk doing 10 outfits than having myself on lobbying. hikhik..

While my voice is already a 'crappy'voice; it became worse and worse because of this kinda show. hiyaaaaa'..... Poor-me. I lost my voice-and it's 85 % total gone!
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Crap" ugly things in my morning timeee.. da da daa.'

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*heegghh..* crap. Kinda bad-start" on a day.
I was awake with my internet still on..and then..!! I read this' message on my posted-wall--it was asking bout my relationship with my Bf. Ouucchhh.. Common... I've been asked for the similar' question like that lately; "although I know that this is the risk', but I'm trying to get my peace of mind hereeee...
//we're still together yesss dahleeenk"... =p But it's usual to have such problem like that. I mean, those crappy' infotainments are just the same--they like to have some gossip (mostly the bad' one) and..unfortunately, on the management-side, most of 'em are also like to use this kinda situation" to promote their New artist/talents!!//
*well; I've shut myself-up for this. ^^*
I just don't get it. We're minding our own business., just because one-another having the same business of our own, people just loved to make fun of that. *pffft!*
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If maybe they're (all kinda' public figure) really have something or in the middle of somewhere'; why can't people just let it?! It's okay to report that on the news/entertainment-channel; but it will be very nice if they just report it for once' a headline. Not interrupting their whole-activities and bugging and spying and interrogating all friends&relatives!!!
*Holy--Geez' I'm staring to get boiled"..=p*

pheww... Okie dokie..., I'm getting myself off now. Gotta go gotta gooo....on working =)
There are more important things to do...than to minding the crappy-things out" ^o^
Just like The Beattles 'song--- Let it be...Let it be..Let it be" (hihihi...) =)

Mood's Rep--!! =)

Spend my day on managing all things in mind. Sleep. (finally I have some time to rest"..)

//Track play : 'Ruth Marie' by Mark Kozelek
'Aku' by SORE
'Closing' by Philip Glass//

Hmm.. Love the song so damn...much!! =)
A bit too drama maybe; but I dunno, I just feel this kind of support' when I listen to these song. Talking bout music, I've been live with them all since I was kiddo. For me, they're like -representing your mood. Yet sometimes they can help me think for what have happened through days.

Okay. Enough for this. >>> Ouuwhh but this 'Ruth Marie' song's very...ironic!! minimalist-sad song. hik*... =( makes me wanna cry and share out my empathy"...huahuaa =p heeggh. >>>
I'll be working this dawn--I mean yes; dawn in the morning! at 04.00 am.ha ha.

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Oh! this is one of my picture yesterday nite. ^^ Me with Laura Subaki" (Basuki =p) came to teteh Nia's birthday & party bash' at Ciputat --it was somewhere.....far from everywhere! hi hi..
and we are the youngest hereeee... =D he he he...
and we were home; plus Tipsy!! ^o^
so this is a real "BarBuk" for both of us to remembered!!

waiting..waiting...and..waiitttiiinggg...*d'oh..* T_T

Hiyaass' here from Surabaya =p hi hi...'
I'm stuck here waiting for my makeup to start. Well.., I guess the soul of wedding' is still around! ^^ Bridal show. yah.., can't do anything.. it's part of our job (as a model), this is like; we can see the difference clearly. It is obvious!! ha ha.. at Jakarta the system that we have on every event (including Fashion show) have been running. at least fine laah.. =) But for the other cities, he he... =p yah...beginilah yaa.... berusaha maklum aja dhe.... Rehearsal ballroom ngga ada sound system-nya, AC belum boleh dinyalain--super Hot' here!!--, and for the complete session; blocking ekspresi gaya jalan, tetap harus Hyper... ^o^ hahahaa..*
//If this was happening to me years before, I would've been in a very bad-mood, pissed off, or crying after the show, and I called my mom-bothering her with all those grumpy' things of mine. *obvious banget anak-anak nya,, =p*//
But it won't be like that anymore. as mom has told me; we have to learn by the experiences we have had. Learn to grow-up and act more mature.
--hmm.. I might haven't act the right thing yet or being mature enough; but at least I became more appreciate' with the people involved.--

--a slip of thoughts'--

There are times when I feel like a bit 'too-much' on working. There will always be some things we don't like in every job that we love. Like all the wise-men said; 'This is Life.., sometimes up, sometimes down..'

I've seen people having difficulties like this. Some handle it easily, some got themselves a bit too far.. It's a rough world we got here. Sometimes I find myself on hearing their confession. About truth, what lies behind their smiling-faces. I did nothing but silence and smile; reminding myself that sometimes I've been in the same position as well =)
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Unique things happen here. haha..

My Story Of me and My Bestfriend =)...

She's my friend. My close friend. I've seen her today. Something, felt a bit 'weird' on her. I don't know what it is..
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She's a young lady, some fresh teenage youngsters just like others (young-adult). All I know is, she lives in this Glamorous & Fame-world as well. Like mine. She's among those crowd. Works hard. nope; very..hard, for her Family. -but I know she does that for herself too-
For her passion; pride; her own glory'... Each time we met, I can say that she's trying to hide her real' feelings to everybody; even her bestfriend and her boyfriend. Shame..?..Nope. She has learned, although she's still learning it until now.
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She was on her shift' to work. at one place, a place that I would like to called People's Fame. She worked on a night shift; after midnight; I mean. I can see that she's kinda tired but she has to do the job. well-the job's only for 3-5 minutes tough'. *** I remembered, she used to hate the job. She doesn't even has any heart for it. But luckily she has a very supportive family. That's why at one night she was trying to accept her destiny; and believed that it was the best that she can do for this year..
Today she was tired; I guess. She's a bit confused' on doing the job. Basically she's ok. But I know that she was feeling bothered by that. Her own mistake.
She's made a Big Commitment. For some people, she's a bubbly-easy going' person; it's odd to see her as a person who actually loved being on a silence, thoughtfully.
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I just Hope she's going to be....tougher..
I'm feelin' proud of her as well. ^^

I Do'// a Real-wed?? or a Fake-one??? huh? huh??

I'm so pleased today.!! ^^ Got more plus thing' on what I always called-Professional-
Okay. There was a Lil' bit of Down-mood for it, but after all it's still fine.
*breath..*=== I started to work by 7 am today. Me & mom drove to Sultan Hotel, to Executive Club. I had a shooting & photo shoot for Wedding's commercial. It wasn't for a TV-commercial; but it will appear on Cinema (its like commercial' before you start watching the movie-=p), and in their Showroom, brochure, kinda that. Actually it is a Wedding-Ring. Hmm..yummy^^
At first I wasn't expecting much for today; cause the plan was we'll take the procession at the garden; an outdoor shoot! and it was raining. *eekkk* Oh Nooo.... I thought it would be a long...day today. Believe me-it was raining hard in the morning-
Luckily we asked for a 'Pawang-Hujan' to handle the rain, at least for a moment..well we couldn't expect much from him cause the rain was very heavy right?'=). So- Mister "Pawang" told us that he's gonna handle the weather but only until it reach 3 o'clock pm. Whoaa... it means we have to get hurry. We decided to skipped our Lunch-time in order to catch the time. *Sigh*

It really worked! The weather was changed suddenly into a daylight. So fast I guess. Cool.
But unfortunately, Mr.'Pawang' did it a little bit too-well. ha. The weather was turned into a really HOT weather! Oh My God we were suffering in our Bridal gown & suit ^^! and the sad thing for me is; My skin got burned by that. I really didn't expect that it'd be damn-hot. Not only me, though.. Richard-the Groom, and the other extras; we were getting Red on our skin ha ha haaa.... Funny. All I could do was wishing for the shoot to be done!! =p
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Above all, it was really fun. I'm happy doing my job. I'm grateful cause I did it professionally., and serious. And the best thing for me today is when I didn't care about my tan/reddish' skin by the Sunny super hot daylight" =p; but only focused on my duty' there^^, as a model* a bride I mean-hihi- we are teamwork here. If we do our job well, then we'll finished right on time.., and we did it! he he...
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*I can't wait to see it, must be very funny-and also odd' for me cause it was like a real-wedding day!! hi hi hi.. Plus! I've got the picture of me & the groom for the pre-wed', and the Certificate of Marriage as well!!!!! ^o^ wuhahahaaa...hohooo... I wonder what's it gonna be..* ^^

talking bout some things I don't like...err'

After 4 days on working; finally I.am.getting.exhausted. *hhhaaaahh..* >>> well let me explain bout' the exhausted thing's meant. It's just because these days there were things that we-me-I really have to fix. Some of them are part of my job;of course..=) and there are other things that also very important for the very next day--so we called it our step by step 'project' for the year.
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I remembered last couple of days ago (while we had shows to do), I was having a conversation with my friends at the backstage. We talked bout all things happened in our job-modeling-. Ha... Thank God it's not only me who sometimes got the 'bad-mood' on my own job; so..I'm not alone ha ha. When (some other times) we have to deal with those kinda weirdo' makeup or -whatkindofhairstyleisthis-; usually all we could do was being silence; or..looking at each other's makeup/hairdo; then after finishing makeup we're gonna start to laughed it. There's nothing we could do, well sometimes if it's not to messed (the makeup) some of us will fix/add it. =p naughty-yes..but it was just for our confidence!^o^ except--for the hairdo. Especially on Bridal-show; whooaaa.....there's nothing we can do about it. If it's a messed, then let it be messed-up like that. Otherwise we're just wasting our time trying to have it fixed. hi hi...

Well it's true what my parents said to me; there are things we don't like in every kind of job that we love. It will always be like that. But if we keep being good, stay in our way, then everything will be fine in the end. =)

>>>Now Playing : "All Bjork's album"--addicted once again--

God. It was awesomeee.. ^o^ I watched her concert. Bjork!! Oowh--- I've been waiting for such a long time for her to come!! Ha ha.. I'm playing her songs over and over again since then =D hi hi...
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For Indonesia--Jakarta; It was good. Great lighting!! I just stared at her as I watched the lights playing round-and round! aaaawwww..-So good!! Although she was sing for about 10 songs only.. Quite-Fast..but still not enough for the most of us (including me^^)
Oh-But I'm so happy cause she sang 'Pagan Poetry' & 'Joga' there!!! he he he...
I was hoping she would sing us her 'Isobel'.., but it didn't exist' till the end of the show. =(
But; after all! I'm satisfied of her concert today!! *well for myself-I don't really like being at any concert,though..=p Cause yesss it is too crowded.* But for Bjork I knew she was different, unique and weirdo kinda people-so... I was hoping there won't be too many people coming.. >> he he.. Wrong. Right after the show was about to start; I realized that lots n lots n lots of people are coming through!!! =O hahahaaa....
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Back again--after stayed alive for 24 hours yesterday!! hoaaa..

--Hmm...-- Write this' in the mid-of my shoot day =) >>> Phew... Yesterday I was totally having my day off! after 24 hours Total-awake and worked. Huah! ^^ ha ha.. We finished our Photo-folio' session at Eric's factory. It became a studio there ^o^ -->Yippiiee....

It was from 9 am to the next 9 am on the next day! We finito the shoot at almost 3 am; then I have to run to one of our TV-station at 3.30 >>> and started on air at 5. Finished; I was reached home at 6; well I didn't feel sleepy at all so I reached my car then Goooo to church. (owh--hey-I'm trying to be a nice girl here!! he he =p)
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Hi hi... I did feel sleepy during the mass. I was hurting myself back then to stayed-alive! ^^ heuuuu.....*
The only thing that I remembered is; I was fell asleep after reached home at about 9.30 am. Huaaammmhh...... It was yummy---before my bat's brother called me at 1 pm- he asked bout' his book. =)
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So.... Now I'm enjoying myself looking at the pictures that we've shoot last day. And waiting for the photo-shoot to start!! Bubye ^v^--

Kiong-Hee..... Rat's Year Arissseee... :)

"Happy Chinese New Year Dear All...!!! -Gong Xi fat Choi!- ^o^"
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~Kiong hee..Kiong hee; Angpao Na Lai.??~ yeap that's what I always been saying to everybody today; well pretty-much hoping that I'll get it'- bwahahaahaa... Mimiii..
I spent most of the day on chatting with mom today. I met my grandma' for wished her a 'kiong-hee', and as usual she made us Misoa & Babi Kecap' ^^- Yummy... A hope for a Live Long and Prosperity ..=)
>> Then we're carry on our chat again. As today's one of our 40 days-on fasting- for Paskah, so I choose to control my emotion more. Hope for the best to be wise & stable..hi hi.
We talked about all those job things.., all the meetings that we've had.., also all those payment' thing. *which quite made me remembering back about my stress & anemia things; ha.* We discussed about reality here, there, everywhere.., even we did have a small argue' back there. =)
Since there's only two of us here-brother has moved to the new house; this Lil' house turned a bit silence.. he.. Used to hear my brother's silly-jokes everyday ^^
Anyways.., today is a social-reality life. I have friends (and my close friends) chatted with me about life. Interesting; cause they teach me on how to face the rough-life with a strong heart. I'm facing 'them too here.
Just to remind myself that I'm not alone, me & my family are not alone on facing this chaotic' rough-life.. he... =)

Hwuaaah.. Terrible Headache! ='(

Really..really hectic. Hoossh..' Apparently there won't be any speech-for Eric's Exhibition. We thought it'd be too..formal (like government-people always do) =p.

So we changed the speech' into comment-only. And- more job for me is; regarding to Eric's plan on publishing his book of exhibition & photography, I have to write some 'Forewords' about how or why or hope for my bat's blothel =p Heeeh??--DeadLine pula!!! I only got 2 days left. Gosh..catch for some inspiration now..
>> Beside that; there's still more things on deadline. We did technical-meeting yesterday after-show; talked about my concept for photo shooting; targets, point of view, and stuffs.. Ughh I had this terrible headache and it even got worse by the dawn; *of course it is, I'm not sleeping at all heuuu..*

I'm a bit nervous. yep. nervous of many things here in mind. Let's see... heading up for the next-project, anything for the good reason of the future., he...it created some 'weirdo' feelings on me. ^^ Hope for the best; prepare for the worst. That's what my teacher had ever told me. ^^
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*owh--almost forgot. Mbak Amy sent me these photos (the other one I've posted on the side bar^^) this morning. Didn't realized that it has been out on the magz already. hi hi...*
.Captured by 'Marsio'.

counting on days...*year of earth-rat =p*

.My friend shared some stories with me. She said that this up-coming year (she's Chinese, so she celebrates Chinese New Year.) will be a hard year. Yesterday we were talking bout' lots n lots of things. *while we're waiting for the dinner-show of Arantxa Adi's private birthday party to be started--what more could we do except having those conversation??--haha.*
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We started dinner-very late. It was almost 10 pm last night. Well we can understand that; it's been raining so hard yesterday..floods everywhere; and of course- super damn-traffic on the road. And it was Friday! =x
ehm.. to be honest; I kinda felt a bit anxious; um..weird. =p >>>Of course I am; we were just sit on the table and chat' and lobbying and waiting for the next food to come. (ergh-I hate table manners--^^). Luckily we're together-all the models. I mean I'd prefer on doing the fashion show on the stage; than waiting in front of the Dine-table together. ^v^ heuu... too shy for it ^^'.
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Finito; drove myself home; and cleaning up makeup. Remembering what my friend has said to me- I agreed with her; this year is different. This year is harder., more complicated., more additional program to do., and tougher.
I guess we're all gonna face 'em this year. Some said if we keep being good, follow the path, hoping and praying and wishing for the best -despite working hard for sure- Everything will be fine =)
*hwaah.. I've been hoping for that too- hummpph..' susahnya keep being good;;hi hi..=p*

gotta go!! Gotta go!!! In the mid-of makeup for gathering show now. (their doing my 'eyelashes; putting the fake' one to go.. Ouch! sticky!! hi hi hi.. catch-ya-laytah" ^o^

a week of - h.e.c.t.i.c.zzz'...

WHoopsss. Been such a long...days since my last post. he he.. (good news for me-I've got 2 comments from unknown whom I called as 'my new friend' -in my last post-^-^).
Well..well...; Kinda hectic week. It keeps my mood to turn up and down almost every single day, that made me lazy to write some of the journal here too =p..
Fashion shows; photo shoots; meetings; shooting; rehearsing; and stuffs. I'm not gonna tell which one has made most of my-time like in hell. haha.. If it wasn't because of some people; I might have' been act like some-snobbish' girl; or even stubborn. =p
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-Today just finished shoot for Big Movies on Global TV studio. I'm always there every month. Luckily today we're only had 7 outfits to go. It's for February edition tough.. and the prompter' was also less-words to announced (or maybe it was just my-feeling yah?!), so it was fine.. =)-
Okie dokie; this morning I'll have to go on rehearsal at EX Plaza. 7.30 in the morning then we can go home (or maybe not), they told me the show will be start at 5 pm--I guess it's gonna be 6 pm lah yaa... ^^
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Phew. gotta workin' out my email and things" now. will be back. Matta-ne!! ^v^

Ha!! It's early in the Morning---It is Dawn already!!!

Uh-huh. Might wanna know what am I doing here writing this in the very special beginning of the day?? =p it's dawn! he he... well; I was asleep; but then I woke up -just a sudden awakening- my eyes just opened, thats all. And I can't sleep no more till' now. *heuuu..
I'm pretty sure it's like my 'insomnia' wanna says Hi to me again. ha ha..
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I was just thinking, about what would I do for the next days. Gosh-- it is something that I have to do, for keeping alive in this world full of solid' things. Probably I don't like this; but still we have to choose right?; well.....*I'm not gonna write up exactly what-it-is-but; lemme do the Illustration, or example =p*
If we're an artisan"; the one who dedicated our life in the name of 'idealism' and 'art', we might be understand this kinda' feeling..
my friend's eve told me, "Idealism is costly". and that is the truth. Agreed. We want to stay still on our 'idealism; but we might forget that we're still live in the social world, which is we have to put our flexibility in it. We still had to work on a teamwork (even the team that we sumtime' don't like at all) for Surviving Life.--Okay..okay..Money; for real--
I'm just wondering what happened with the people who had that idealism, but they don't have anything to hold on to?
it means they had to work commercially; socially-act,to get some cash' for staying alive.
That-what I called a flexibility. and that-also sucks for me. Have to choose to deal with flexibility... I don't hate the situation, I'm grateful for what I had reach; but honestly, I don't like the people. The "commercial-lovers' (bukan iklan yeee artinyaa ^^). something to be commercial.booming. like that-I don't really like 'em. Cause, those people never wanna know about -what is artificial-side'- no room for it. just a deadline...deadline...and dead-commercial-line" =)
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d'oh..* I've talk too much I guess hi hi.. but I really need to shout-out my mind, tough.
yah...namanya juga hidup >>> It really is-all about choices in life...
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Opening Fun-Tastic" Le Salon---ouch! an accidential story! errr....

Ha ha ha.. What a fun'tastic- show this late night. =)
after some 'trouble-mumble' with the Thai client; and now I had the problem with myself!! huaaa... My pants-were down // but only a bit// phew...God! So- 1st outfit; 'saved by the stocking'. then the 2nd outfit; because I still wear my stocking so it became quite' slippery, so the Two-Pieces outfits of me,with that half Legging; were almost ran down. *shoot.*
AAARRRRGGGHH--I couldn't say anything moreee.. ^^, heuuu... well luckily I still can Act' a bit laa..hi hi. Just pulled and give some attitude there; then it's done. But still for me, it was yesss; a fashion crimple" in my book. he he...*blushed* after all.., it was only a minor thing- from the fashion stage. So... yeah.. *speechless.ha*
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But! Behind that! oooohh--Our friends were coming..!! They're, male models like kokoh' Richard was there and Waqid said that he's making a record for us to see!!! hua ha haaa... ^o^ Must be so...funny; especially for those 3 Male-Models who were also in the "Marie Antoinette" show! =p
Most of all were Laughed and Teasing and Screaming like "Oooohh... Wooo.. Aaaahh..Awwww!!" on Boys. Because! They were on Panties and Leggings!!!! =D
hahahahahaa--*still laugh* We're praised for their Braveness. =) hi hii..
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Well, Right after that; I met all the fashionista' people for couple of minutes (some of them were drunk already' haha) and...straight home!

God; I am very sure that I'm not gonna sleep tonight; cos I've been through the Sleepiest-Moment' of me this afternoon & night; so..yup. I'm going to browse all news that I've missed; and write my notebook, probably download some musics ^^, ups--and Think about New concept for Composit!! =)

What a" Hectic Day!!!!

God! It's a very Hectic day I had!!!! =O

after-show and then I had to do the fitting, (but apparently the fitt-was turned like an audition-! what-what-what??)

So there's this client from HK and Thailand; and it's for the opening of a Saloon here at Lamoda Plaza Indonesia-mall. But!!! They're so...grumpy",and we models just thought what happened with the professionaly-teamwork' that we always used in fashion?, it was supposed to be a Fitting only! =0,

and the outfits. The Outfits!!! God!!!! We were almost wearing the skin' outfits. It's too-nude! Tiny Skimpy like swimsuit-*like Vin said hihi*

Luckyly they agree when I asked them how is it gonna be if I wear some stockings or anything to cover our skin; cos it really is Too-Skin!! Common'.. it's a Mall lhooo... ^o^

so after that I still need to do all the job again at home; including write the Blogs =p hihi...

I have to look ater the books for reading; hahaha... no.., I need to update the agenda, meeting, handphone if anyone calls.

Huaahmmmmm... I'm so very berry sleepy now... okie dokie,....gotta go...

Drop-daysss... on Me!! T_T

>>> God- I'm dizzy. Dizzy-dizzy-dizzy...!!! I mean; I had a real' dizzy-headache today. As usual, anemia says Hi to me againnn... =(
Hufff; already spent my day on fitting today, and now I'm home-setting up my health and mood for tomorrow's work. Busy-Bee" time again tomorrow--Yippie!!! *just Lil' bit worried of how my anemia's gonna accompany me or not haha.*
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Well well well; so now I guess I'm gonna finished my reading for the Fairies 101' book that Eric's been lend it for me! =) Ric; it is drop dead cool-yummy-it relly makes me wanna see all those Fairies for real tau ngga!! Hi hi hi..*

Oh; mas Dean has just msg' me on facebook and he asked me if I can write few lines for their new "Rubrik" on SOAP magazine. It is called 'Reader Letters'. I'm writing it soon then ^-^
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Okie Dokey! gotta go---gotta go...Rest, eat, browse, read, write, rest, read, drink milk.., (terusssss.....)he he he.
Catch me- laytah" =)

some News-Netherlands-some calls; Some Bad news...some 'confusing news; bla...bla...blaaa... aaggh F**k all!!!!

Errrrrrr. Bugger. Why is every "ribeth" things came-up tome after sleep time???!! shut. hate this. =(.. Except for the happy-happy news I've got ya.

>>> Well, first came was Jon called me. He spoke bout some topics which led him to said that I am really is his best friend --as his step-daughter ^^, apparently he'll be ready to disturbing me around for his tiredness of 'the work situation. ha *horeeee...i'm blushed! ^^*
>>> Then when I opened my laptop (again); I received an off-line message from Father Theo; his been in Netherlands, Holland now. since 3 actually. Haeiii! I'm so...happy to have the message; he gave me his number there; then after a couples of minutes; He then Appeared online!! =O
Ha Ha... We chat a lot; he said it is very berry Cold there, and it was still; afternoon! hihi ^^
Bless You Frater Theo!!! *jangan lupa oleh2nya yaa...buat 3 taon ke depannn huaha*
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and! after that; still I received a phone call, and actually to be honest it did make me pissed. Cos the questions was always being repeated-and repeated again n againnnn. nyebelin.I could almost cry of it. huh*
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And again! don't forget I still need to figure out the lyrics for children's songs tomorrow; and cursing my -Naughty jazzy-voice which appeared today; one day before singing day at church. AArrrrrghhh!!! T_T
so I think tonight I'll be preparing myself to being a Bat-Girl' again to browse and decided what songs for me ;and the children.

-Phew---Good Luck for me Then;-

a Tummy-ache T_T hik hik... it hurts yaaa....huaaa..

Ache!! My Tummy's ache because of the 'period' timeee... huuhuuu...=((
Luckily I've no job today so I'm gonna use this to resting-timeee.... Ugh-and my Voice is getting Jazzy too!!! aaarrrrgghhh!! p.o.o.r . m.e!!! ='(
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Ouch; I still cannot find more songs for tomorrow nich! Browse..browse..browse... Child Christmas Songs.. tomorrow's a sing-a-song day with kiddie-kiddie" ^-^..hi hi.. so cute I'm sure; but still I have to find songs for 'em!! d'oh*
Shut. and I'm not able to sing any song kayaknya*; because of this Jazzy-Voice I;ve got. hik hiks...nggak enaaakkkkk... bete bete bete. T_T
>>> So. Today's a reading-book day for me. I really had this 'temptation' on books I haven't read lately. (wuach-got quite many of 'em!)
hmm... Hope this afternoon Eric can be able to pick-me up and go to Gourmet Garage" for eat! ha ha ha... Bit before; he promised me to tell how's the result of my Photo which has been prepared on a 240 x 180 !! aaawww- can't imagine how is it gonna be..?! hi hi =)

MoLning-TaLkshow and some memmo" about the Lost in Translation at Senayan City with my-Brother'Bat!!! HUAHAA..

Huaaaahhhhh..... I'm done for my-Half Job" today >>>>apparently in 1 hour later I still have to go for another place to do the show! ^-^
Ha Ha Ha!! Lativi's talkshow was so silly; but it's fun enough tough; cause it still has a message to spread- heheheh... Well, the quest' is about Imlek tough-hmm...and also bout Discrimination around SARA " thing'--according to Mimiii-who..got this Tionghoa Japanese Javanese' blood here...=] hoho. so it was quite fine kok * ^^
Ric! well well; your lil' bat sista was fell to sleep at 3.15 am in-the-morning nich!!!!! =( huuu... sorry; its was because there's this Hectic things I've got to finished and Fixed! hahaha... *I'll let you know later when U call me okie?!*
Well, I remembered Our last picture I got here ^^ Ouuuuccchhh!! I looovvveeee 'em so...Much! *hugs*
Looking at them just make me cheer-up again tau ga! So what we did last night; when We got that "Lost in Translation" in a couple of hours (or..minutes yach??) at Senayan City; Walking round and' round till I almost got my-Headache haha..; I guess the picture made a Cure' for it =) yumm'... =D



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Oke! Pheww---- Now I have to be ready again for La Piazza in 45 minutes ^^' Gotta go-Gotta go...!!

a Dealing with the-It people which has successfully Made Me "AAAAARRGGHH"!! =p

*I'm eating chopstik' when I write this; huahaa..* >>> Hwuaaahhh!!!! It's been quite a long...time. It's tough. It's hurt.yet sometimes we need it and need to deal with it; still- =| But Hell-I couldn't stand myself to get this' feel outta my head!! ^^
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Dealing with people. at work-case I mean. Taft; yesss.. There will be this' days when we have to put ourselves in a Bit' Lower--position, in case of the situation yah. Really not only me; but mom, friends, even all I guess; will be facing this kinda' time someday.. =) The Bad feelings of all..feelings of being a small'; trashy' kind of human; will sometimes do appear. Me- still had to learn from them; to be more...flexible to others, being a bit' put my Idealism' on a lower position. *Believe me -It always is; sucks.ha*
But I learned as well; as to be remember sometimes; if we put a little bit of 'Kindness' there in your heart,body,& mind; it will be just the way it is...run smooth... Although might be will put a tiny 'Scratch in your deepest heart. ha haaa.... What A Life we have had... Reality bites all.. ^-^
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So! Back to my activities; I really really have to go to sleep; since I realized that this is already 02.55 am in the morning!!!!! and I have to wake up at 7.15 to preparing myself on makeup and hair; (for a talkshow) after that I'm gonna go to La Piazza Kelapa Gading for a show! ^-^
>>>>> Okie... Music Box's going on board....of sleeping-island' zzz...zzzz...* hi =)

Photo-Ghosting" Posteeerrrrrrzzzzz!!!!!!! and....some other duties to do suddenly; Haaaaaa------

Fiuuhhh* Today's photo shoot' was well-done ^o^. We really have to woke up in the morning; and started at 7 to gooooo....to Bekasi Kemang Pratama! huahh. f.a.r. =p
I had this 'scared-creepy-expression's there; it's part of the show-ha ha-; but we had fun; It's like a Reunion between us, although there's only a quarter" of us (all of the crew). We did the Chit-Chatting' like before-the Bizarre One! heheheh.. Hope everything will be very OK then =))
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So Ritttaaaafterr that; we finished around 6 pm-ish I guess. forgot =p. I felt so....hungry! Luckily they dropped me home; and on our way we had Bakso-Bulet Kejuuu!! hmmm cheese!! Yummy!!! I had too-spicy for the soup! hi hi...
>>>> and--now I'm just finito doing my other duties as I've been told earlier; Check' my email; Read the Rundown for a show; Check on News; Re-scheduling; Send Photo-folios to client; and last... I'm helping my Friend to do her "Deadline Final-Exam" to copy all...my photos, from the very beginning I was born until now. *she has to work-on the exam; 'Short-Autobiography'...^^*
Well, TiMiii!! Wait for me yaa..just preparing all my photos(sss); n ouch you make me get my dizzy because of those Photos tau gaaa... ha ha... *Kidding Baby!!*
We'll meet on Thursday-cos tomorrow I'll had my Busybee' time for 3 places-which is Hoorrreeeee......It started on working againnnn...^^'
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Okie dokie!! Gotta go Gotta go gotta Goooooo to Rest now for tomorrow!!!
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Getting through on a photo-shoot & chatzzz & meeting &...Really had to decided ny deal"!! *ugghh...*

A day of full...posing" day! ha ha.. I'm just having my-chance' to open my laptop and all.. Pffiiuuuhhhh... Got a meeting with a group of TV program; and we talked about what's the content n commitment n all that 'I-know-what-it-is-about-dealing-with-the-reality'. *God-i don't like to confess.*
Finally slowly I had to release (a bit' sich..) my-very idealistic" point of view. so I really have to deal with other people from another main job of mine.. Okay..Okay... Enough bout the deal-story time. Anyway; before I did the meeting, I had this photoshoot with Senopati Media group. *aaawww--thanks for the dress & accessories & shoes that I've got!!! huwaaa... They really gave it to me! ^o^*
They also interviewed me. I had a fun-time there! Cause they made me comfortable with all stuffs; people;and othersss. Well I had a tiny Lil' flicka' here-for I've been answering the Questions. Looks like I'm getting more...knowing about what am I talking or want to answer about'. It feels good to be more mature and speaking of reality" hi hi..silly.. =p Thanks All! ^-^
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Oh!! Tomorrow's photo shoot for KARMA! yippiii..I can't wait to meet them; all crew. Well not all-like the shooting day but at least people who had a very 'major' act there; will be on the set! ^^ hummph---I'm sooo....excited for tomorrow; and I'm sure I'll be playing with my Insomnia again because of it. Too-excited. Ha.
Elvin called me after I was done everything..,and we talked about the Promo' for Karma on magazines. =) well I do hope everything will be okie.. =)
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Pheww* Life is all about choices"..(???) what?? -need to deal...need to deal with that" =I

Phewh-...Yess.. I really have to deal with my-own life Quotes "Life's all about Choices" for this year. Why? cos everything in this world full of people; nothing's run smooth as we always wanted to..No. Like me, I have to realize that. Well I think I can handle it easily; but in fact; wow it is, 'difficult ya!! he..

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>>>This morning, my mom just come into my room and brought me something. Guess what; it is a Contract-Sheet" between me and John Casablancas Center Modeling School!! ^o^
I read 'em, and I realize that I was being a student there since 8 February 2002; and Class was start on 25 February 2002; so it's mean it's been Almost 6-years I've been Modeling since then!!! haaaa.... And looking back from those days; days when I have to go from Bekasi-Timur to Baritto' then go back again to Bekasi accompanied by my mommy; Owh- It really is..made me proud of what I've got till' today =)
>>> Then! even after I've already moved here; It's not like we're stop to working hard now. Nope., even we have to work harder! hi hi hi... well, as it is; 'No Pain-No Gain darling..=)'
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So. Regarding from this "Flashback' report; I realize that This Year, 2008; we, my-family still had a lot of works (sss) to-do! ha. yepzzz..Still we need to working out every-little things, to keep us alive in the World. between all human as well. ^=^**a butterfly I've been taken a picture of it. so lovably, what God has been create all!! ^^**

A Year of All..Feelings in 2007 ^-^

On New Year's Eve I was thinking. I was think about all that have had happened through all...those year. =)
There are so..many people who's been helping; who's gotta be an Angel for me, help me thru' life, an achieved it. There I will be saying thank you (sss) for 'em. And for all these years I've got; I dare say It's been a Grace-a Miracle! Thank God for what I have reached till' the end of year 2007. And now it's a New day-arise; I, me, mom, brother, all my friends, families, all friends at work (from fashion to movie to advertorial-act), all...everybody- We Are Getting Ready to Face' Changes... Change of Ourself, to get what We want for Life; in 2008.
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All the Happiness; Sadness; Hard works behind; and even the Stressful in year '07; I take it as a Miracle-Gifts from God. It's a pace' of life that I have to take, and walked-through almost everyday. =) I really am so..Lucky to have all.. people who still supporting me; in Bad times ,and Good times.
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So now; Let's take a Tour on 2008!!! With a Brand-New Spirit of Lifeeeee!!!!!
~May God Bless Us All..!! ^o^~

A new day, a New hope, a New.......Mentally' for Jobs??! =p ^^hieee....*

*Hffaaaa.... happy New Year! May all get The Best Year eva' in 2008! =D
well... as I've been said before; yesterday >>last day of year 2007 >> I met my best girlfriend at PIM; unfortunately it was the best place (sometimes we went to Kemang also) that Placed"--in between Tebet *my house* and Depok *Natasha's house* Hua hahahahaaa...
So! we met there for Lunch; and... having the' Chit-Chat as before; it is exactly like that every time we meet-up! hi hi hi... Miss her SO MUCH; *yeap..yeaph... it's been like.. how long Itii?? u-huh-half of the year since we haven't meet???!! Whaaattttt?? That Long!!! ha ha ha!.. God-No Wonder we miss our "Curhatz" time sooo much! ^o^*
==But yesterday it was only 3 hours meeting; cause I have to go to Church for the 'End of The Year' s mass :)
then me and Nattie' made this promises; *it happens to be our new year's resolution as well!=p*
>>From Now On; startin' from this January, we have to meet each-other in everrryyy month! Once in a month is enough! Max-2 months laa... hihihi <<
Cool! wishes are Granted. =)
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RIIIGGGHHHTTT!!! And Look at thiss!! This! Was-This Morning! ha ha ha... My brother's going to go to Church; but then he's suddenly Kissed Me-New Year when I was Just about to Awake!!! ^o^ huahahaha... *muach muach kakaaakkk*
He's nice if he isn't on a Serious Position =) *weeekkhh; see--and I was being so reflect' Grabbing my Camera; Then "Click!!" Cheerrsss Kak!! =p
Owkiee...so..now I'm gonna carry-on Cleaning out my House >>> as a Very Good Start of the New Day!! HA HA HA ~~