a week of - h.e.c.t.i.c.zzz'...

WHoopsss. Been such a long...days since my last post. he he.. (good news for me-I've got 2 comments from unknown whom I called as 'my new friend' -in my last post-^-^).
Well..well...; Kinda hectic week. It keeps my mood to turn up and down almost every single day, that made me lazy to write some of the journal here too =p..
Fashion shows; photo shoots; meetings; shooting; rehearsing; and stuffs. I'm not gonna tell which one has made most of my-time like in hell. haha.. If it wasn't because of some people; I might have' been act like some-snobbish' girl; or even stubborn. =p
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-Today just finished shoot for Big Movies on Global TV studio. I'm always there every month. Luckily today we're only had 7 outfits to go. It's for February edition tough.. and the prompter' was also less-words to announced (or maybe it was just my-feeling yah?!), so it was fine.. =)-
Okie dokie; this morning I'll have to go on rehearsal at EX Plaza. 7.30 in the morning then we can go home (or maybe not), they told me the show will be start at 5 pm--I guess it's gonna be 6 pm lah yaa... ^^
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Phew. gotta workin' out my email and things" now. will be back. Matta-ne!! ^v^

Ha!! It's early in the Morning---It is Dawn already!!!

Uh-huh. Might wanna know what am I doing here writing this in the very special beginning of the day?? =p it's dawn! he he... well; I was asleep; but then I woke up -just a sudden awakening- my eyes just opened, thats all. And I can't sleep no more till' now. *heuuu..
I'm pretty sure it's like my 'insomnia' wanna says Hi to me again. ha ha..
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I was just thinking, about what would I do for the next days. Gosh-- it is something that I have to do, for keeping alive in this world full of solid' things. Probably I don't like this; but still we have to choose right?; well.....*I'm not gonna write up exactly what-it-is-but; lemme do the Illustration, or example =p*
If we're an artisan"; the one who dedicated our life in the name of 'idealism' and 'art', we might be understand this kinda' feeling..
my friend's eve told me, "Idealism is costly". and that is the truth. Agreed. We want to stay still on our 'idealism; but we might forget that we're still live in the social world, which is we have to put our flexibility in it. We still had to work on a teamwork (even the team that we sumtime' don't like at all) for Surviving Life.--Okay..okay..Money; for real--
I'm just wondering what happened with the people who had that idealism, but they don't have anything to hold on to?
it means they had to work commercially; socially-act,to get some cash' for staying alive.
That-what I called a flexibility. and that-also sucks for me. Have to choose to deal with flexibility... I don't hate the situation, I'm grateful for what I had reach; but honestly, I don't like the people. The "commercial-lovers' (bukan iklan yeee artinyaa ^^). something to be commercial.booming. like that-I don't really like 'em. Cause, those people never wanna know about -what is artificial-side'- no room for it. just a deadline...deadline...and dead-commercial-line" =)
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d'oh..* I've talk too much I guess hi hi.. but I really need to shout-out my mind, tough.
yah...namanya juga hidup >>> It really is-all about choices in life...
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Opening Fun-Tastic" Le Salon---ouch! an accidential story! errr....

Ha ha ha.. What a fun'tastic- show this late night. =)
after some 'trouble-mumble' with the Thai client; and now I had the problem with myself!! huaaa... My pants-were down // but only a bit// phew...God! So- 1st outfit; 'saved by the stocking'. then the 2nd outfit; because I still wear my stocking so it became quite' slippery, so the Two-Pieces outfits of me,with that half Legging; were almost ran down. *shoot.*
AAARRRRGGGHH--I couldn't say anything moreee.. ^^, heuuu... well luckily I still can Act' a bit laa..hi hi. Just pulled and give some attitude there; then it's done. But still for me, it was yesss; a fashion crimple" in my book. he he...*blushed* after all.., it was only a minor thing- from the fashion stage. So... yeah.. *speechless.ha*
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But! Behind that! oooohh--Our friends were coming..!! They're, male models like kokoh' Richard was there and Waqid said that he's making a record for us to see!!! hua ha haaa... ^o^ Must be so...funny; especially for those 3 Male-Models who were also in the "Marie Antoinette" show! =p
Most of all were Laughed and Teasing and Screaming like "Oooohh... Wooo.. Aaaahh..Awwww!!" on Boys. Because! They were on Panties and Leggings!!!! =D
hahahahahaa--*still laugh* We're praised for their Braveness. =) hi hii..
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Well, Right after that; I met all the fashionista' people for couple of minutes (some of them were drunk already' haha) and...straight home!

God; I am very sure that I'm not gonna sleep tonight; cos I've been through the Sleepiest-Moment' of me this afternoon & night; so..yup. I'm going to browse all news that I've missed; and write my notebook, probably download some musics ^^, ups--and Think about New concept for Composit!! =)

What a" Hectic Day!!!!

God! It's a very Hectic day I had!!!! =O

after-show and then I had to do the fitting, (but apparently the fitt-was turned like an audition-! what-what-what??)

So there's this client from HK and Thailand; and it's for the opening of a Saloon here at Lamoda Plaza Indonesia-mall. But!!! They're so...grumpy",and we models just thought what happened with the professionaly-teamwork' that we always used in fashion?, it was supposed to be a Fitting only! =0,

and the outfits. The Outfits!!! God!!!! We were almost wearing the skin' outfits. It's too-nude! Tiny Skimpy like swimsuit-*like Vin said hihi*

Luckyly they agree when I asked them how is it gonna be if I wear some stockings or anything to cover our skin; cos it really is Too-Skin!! Common'.. it's a Mall lhooo... ^o^

so after that I still need to do all the job again at home; including write the Blogs =p hihi...

I have to look ater the books for reading; hahaha... no.., I need to update the agenda, meeting, handphone if anyone calls.

Huaahmmmmm... I'm so very berry sleepy now... okie dokie,....gotta go...

Drop-daysss... on Me!! T_T

>>> God- I'm dizzy. Dizzy-dizzy-dizzy...!!! I mean; I had a real' dizzy-headache today. As usual, anemia says Hi to me againnn... =(
Hufff; already spent my day on fitting today, and now I'm home-setting up my health and mood for tomorrow's work. Busy-Bee" time again tomorrow--Yippie!!! *just Lil' bit worried of how my anemia's gonna accompany me or not haha.*
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Well well well; so now I guess I'm gonna finished my reading for the Fairies 101' book that Eric's been lend it for me! =) Ric; it is drop dead cool-yummy-it relly makes me wanna see all those Fairies for real tau ngga!! Hi hi hi..*

Oh; mas Dean has just msg' me on facebook and he asked me if I can write few lines for their new "Rubrik" on SOAP magazine. It is called 'Reader Letters'. I'm writing it soon then ^-^
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Okie Dokey! gotta go---gotta go...Rest, eat, browse, read, write, rest, read, drink milk.., (terusssss.....)he he he.
Catch me- laytah" =)

some News-Netherlands-some calls; Some Bad news...some 'confusing news; bla...bla...blaaa... aaggh F**k all!!!!

Errrrrrr. Bugger. Why is every "ribeth" things came-up tome after sleep time???!! shut. hate this. =(.. Except for the happy-happy news I've got ya.

>>> Well, first came was Jon called me. He spoke bout some topics which led him to said that I am really is his best friend --as his step-daughter ^^, apparently he'll be ready to disturbing me around for his tiredness of 'the work situation. ha *horeeee...i'm blushed! ^^*
>>> Then when I opened my laptop (again); I received an off-line message from Father Theo; his been in Netherlands, Holland now. since 3 actually. Haeiii! I'm so...happy to have the message; he gave me his number there; then after a couples of minutes; He then Appeared online!! =O
Ha Ha... We chat a lot; he said it is very berry Cold there, and it was still; afternoon! hihi ^^
Bless You Frater Theo!!! *jangan lupa oleh2nya yaa...buat 3 taon ke depannn huaha*
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and! after that; still I received a phone call, and actually to be honest it did make me pissed. Cos the questions was always being repeated-and repeated again n againnnn. nyebelin.I could almost cry of it. huh*
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And again! don't forget I still need to figure out the lyrics for children's songs tomorrow; and cursing my -Naughty jazzy-voice which appeared today; one day before singing day at church. AArrrrrghhh!!! T_T
so I think tonight I'll be preparing myself to being a Bat-Girl' again to browse and decided what songs for me ;and the children.

-Phew---Good Luck for me Then;-

a Tummy-ache T_T hik hik... it hurts yaaa....huaaa..

Ache!! My Tummy's ache because of the 'period' timeee... huuhuuu...=((
Luckily I've no job today so I'm gonna use this to resting-timeee.... Ugh-and my Voice is getting Jazzy too!!! aaarrrrgghhh!! p.o.o.r . m.e!!! ='(
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Ouch; I still cannot find more songs for tomorrow nich! Browse..browse..browse... Child Christmas Songs.. tomorrow's a sing-a-song day with kiddie-kiddie" ^-^..hi hi.. so cute I'm sure; but still I have to find songs for 'em!! d'oh*
Shut. and I'm not able to sing any song kayaknya*; because of this Jazzy-Voice I;ve got. hik hiks...nggak enaaakkkkk... bete bete bete. T_T
>>> So. Today's a reading-book day for me. I really had this 'temptation' on books I haven't read lately. (wuach-got quite many of 'em!)
hmm... Hope this afternoon Eric can be able to pick-me up and go to Gourmet Garage" for eat! ha ha ha... Bit before; he promised me to tell how's the result of my Photo which has been prepared on a 240 x 180 !! aaawww- can't imagine how is it gonna be..?! hi hi =)

MoLning-TaLkshow and some memmo" about the Lost in Translation at Senayan City with my-Brother'Bat!!! HUAHAA..

Huaaaahhhhh..... I'm done for my-Half Job" today >>>>apparently in 1 hour later I still have to go for another place to do the show! ^-^
Ha Ha Ha!! Lativi's talkshow was so silly; but it's fun enough tough; cause it still has a message to spread- heheheh... Well, the quest' is about Imlek tough-hmm...and also bout Discrimination around SARA " thing'--according to Mimiii-who..got this Tionghoa Japanese Javanese' blood here...=] hoho. so it was quite fine kok * ^^
Ric! well well; your lil' bat sista was fell to sleep at 3.15 am in-the-morning nich!!!!! =( huuu... sorry; its was because there's this Hectic things I've got to finished and Fixed! hahaha... *I'll let you know later when U call me okie?!*
Well, I remembered Our last picture I got here ^^ Ouuuuccchhh!! I looovvveeee 'em so...Much! *hugs*
Looking at them just make me cheer-up again tau ga! So what we did last night; when We got that "Lost in Translation" in a couple of hours (or..minutes yach??) at Senayan City; Walking round and' round till I almost got my-Headache haha..; I guess the picture made a Cure' for it =) yumm'... =D



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Oke! Pheww---- Now I have to be ready again for La Piazza in 45 minutes ^^' Gotta go-Gotta go...!!

a Dealing with the-It people which has successfully Made Me "AAAAARRGGHH"!! =p

*I'm eating chopstik' when I write this; huahaa..* >>> Hwuaaahhh!!!! It's been quite a long...time. It's tough. It's hurt.yet sometimes we need it and need to deal with it; still- =| But Hell-I couldn't stand myself to get this' feel outta my head!! ^^
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Dealing with people. at work-case I mean. Taft; yesss.. There will be this' days when we have to put ourselves in a Bit' Lower--position, in case of the situation yah. Really not only me; but mom, friends, even all I guess; will be facing this kinda' time someday.. =) The Bad feelings of all..feelings of being a small'; trashy' kind of human; will sometimes do appear. Me- still had to learn from them; to be more...flexible to others, being a bit' put my Idealism' on a lower position. *Believe me -It always is; sucks.ha*
But I learned as well; as to be remember sometimes; if we put a little bit of 'Kindness' there in your heart,body,& mind; it will be just the way it is...run smooth... Although might be will put a tiny 'Scratch in your deepest heart. ha haaa.... What A Life we have had... Reality bites all.. ^-^
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So! Back to my activities; I really really have to go to sleep; since I realized that this is already 02.55 am in the morning!!!!! and I have to wake up at 7.15 to preparing myself on makeup and hair; (for a talkshow) after that I'm gonna go to La Piazza Kelapa Gading for a show! ^-^
>>>>> Okie... Music Box's going on board....of sleeping-island' zzz...zzzz...* hi =)

Photo-Ghosting" Posteeerrrrrrzzzzz!!!!!!! and....some other duties to do suddenly; Haaaaaa------

Fiuuhhh* Today's photo shoot' was well-done ^o^. We really have to woke up in the morning; and started at 7 to gooooo....to Bekasi Kemang Pratama! huahh. f.a.r. =p
I had this 'scared-creepy-expression's there; it's part of the show-ha ha-; but we had fun; It's like a Reunion between us, although there's only a quarter" of us (all of the crew). We did the Chit-Chatting' like before-the Bizarre One! heheheh.. Hope everything will be very OK then =))
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So Ritttaaaafterr that; we finished around 6 pm-ish I guess. forgot =p. I felt so....hungry! Luckily they dropped me home; and on our way we had Bakso-Bulet Kejuuu!! hmmm cheese!! Yummy!!! I had too-spicy for the soup! hi hi...
>>>> and--now I'm just finito doing my other duties as I've been told earlier; Check' my email; Read the Rundown for a show; Check on News; Re-scheduling; Send Photo-folios to client; and last... I'm helping my Friend to do her "Deadline Final-Exam" to copy all...my photos, from the very beginning I was born until now. *she has to work-on the exam; 'Short-Autobiography'...^^*
Well, TiMiii!! Wait for me yaa..just preparing all my photos(sss); n ouch you make me get my dizzy because of those Photos tau gaaa... ha ha... *Kidding Baby!!*
We'll meet on Thursday-cos tomorrow I'll had my Busybee' time for 3 places-which is Hoorrreeeee......It started on working againnnn...^^'
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Okie dokie!! Gotta go Gotta go gotta Goooooo to Rest now for tomorrow!!!
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Getting through on a photo-shoot & chatzzz & meeting &...Really had to decided ny deal"!! *ugghh...*

A day of full...posing" day! ha ha.. I'm just having my-chance' to open my laptop and all.. Pffiiuuuhhhh... Got a meeting with a group of TV program; and we talked about what's the content n commitment n all that 'I-know-what-it-is-about-dealing-with-the-reality'. *God-i don't like to confess.*
Finally slowly I had to release (a bit' sich..) my-very idealistic" point of view. so I really have to deal with other people from another main job of mine.. Okay..Okay... Enough bout the deal-story time. Anyway; before I did the meeting, I had this photoshoot with Senopati Media group. *aaawww--thanks for the dress & accessories & shoes that I've got!!! huwaaa... They really gave it to me! ^o^*
They also interviewed me. I had a fun-time there! Cause they made me comfortable with all stuffs; people;and othersss. Well I had a tiny Lil' flicka' here-for I've been answering the Questions. Looks like I'm getting more...knowing about what am I talking or want to answer about'. It feels good to be more mature and speaking of reality" hi hi..silly.. =p Thanks All! ^-^
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Oh!! Tomorrow's photo shoot for KARMA! yippiii..I can't wait to meet them; all crew. Well not all-like the shooting day but at least people who had a very 'major' act there; will be on the set! ^^ hummph---I'm sooo....excited for tomorrow; and I'm sure I'll be playing with my Insomnia again because of it. Too-excited. Ha.
Elvin called me after I was done everything..,and we talked about the Promo' for Karma on magazines. =) well I do hope everything will be okie.. =)
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Pheww* Life is all about choices"..(???) what?? -need to deal...need to deal with that" =I

Phewh-...Yess.. I really have to deal with my-own life Quotes "Life's all about Choices" for this year. Why? cos everything in this world full of people; nothing's run smooth as we always wanted to..No. Like me, I have to realize that. Well I think I can handle it easily; but in fact; wow it is, 'difficult ya!! he..

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>>>This morning, my mom just come into my room and brought me something. Guess what; it is a Contract-Sheet" between me and John Casablancas Center Modeling School!! ^o^
I read 'em, and I realize that I was being a student there since 8 February 2002; and Class was start on 25 February 2002; so it's mean it's been Almost 6-years I've been Modeling since then!!! haaaa.... And looking back from those days; days when I have to go from Bekasi-Timur to Baritto' then go back again to Bekasi accompanied by my mommy; Owh- It really is..made me proud of what I've got till' today =)
>>> Then! even after I've already moved here; It's not like we're stop to working hard now. Nope., even we have to work harder! hi hi hi... well, as it is; 'No Pain-No Gain darling..=)'
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So. Regarding from this "Flashback' report; I realize that This Year, 2008; we, my-family still had a lot of works (sss) to-do! ha. yepzzz..Still we need to working out every-little things, to keep us alive in the World. between all human as well. ^=^**a butterfly I've been taken a picture of it. so lovably, what God has been create all!! ^^**

A Year of All..Feelings in 2007 ^-^

On New Year's Eve I was thinking. I was think about all that have had happened through all...those year. =)
There are so..many people who's been helping; who's gotta be an Angel for me, help me thru' life, an achieved it. There I will be saying thank you (sss) for 'em. And for all these years I've got; I dare say It's been a Grace-a Miracle! Thank God for what I have reached till' the end of year 2007. And now it's a New day-arise; I, me, mom, brother, all my friends, families, all friends at work (from fashion to movie to advertorial-act), all...everybody- We Are Getting Ready to Face' Changes... Change of Ourself, to get what We want for Life; in 2008.
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All the Happiness; Sadness; Hard works behind; and even the Stressful in year '07; I take it as a Miracle-Gifts from God. It's a pace' of life that I have to take, and walked-through almost everyday. =) I really am so..Lucky to have all.. people who still supporting me; in Bad times ,and Good times.
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So now; Let's take a Tour on 2008!!! With a Brand-New Spirit of Lifeeeee!!!!!
~May God Bless Us All..!! ^o^~

A new day, a New hope, a New.......Mentally' for Jobs??! =p ^^hieee....*

*Hffaaaa.... happy New Year! May all get The Best Year eva' in 2008! =D
well... as I've been said before; yesterday >>last day of year 2007 >> I met my best girlfriend at PIM; unfortunately it was the best place (sometimes we went to Kemang also) that Placed"--in between Tebet *my house* and Depok *Natasha's house* Hua hahahahaaa...
So! we met there for Lunch; and... having the' Chit-Chat as before; it is exactly like that every time we meet-up! hi hi hi... Miss her SO MUCH; *yeap..yeaph... it's been like.. how long Itii?? u-huh-half of the year since we haven't meet???!! Whaaattttt?? That Long!!! ha ha ha!.. God-No Wonder we miss our "Curhatz" time sooo much! ^o^*
==But yesterday it was only 3 hours meeting; cause I have to go to Church for the 'End of The Year' s mass :)
then me and Nattie' made this promises; *it happens to be our new year's resolution as well!=p*
>>From Now On; startin' from this January, we have to meet each-other in everrryyy month! Once in a month is enough! Max-2 months laa... hihihi <<
Cool! wishes are Granted. =)
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RIIIGGGHHHTTT!!! And Look at thiss!! This! Was-This Morning! ha ha ha... My brother's going to go to Church; but then he's suddenly Kissed Me-New Year when I was Just about to Awake!!! ^o^ huahahaha... *muach muach kakaaakkk*
He's nice if he isn't on a Serious Position =) *weeekkhh; see--and I was being so reflect' Grabbing my Camera; Then "Click!!" Cheerrsss Kak!! =p
Owkiee...so..now I'm gonna carry-on Cleaning out my House >>> as a Very Good Start of the New Day!! HA HA HA ~~