Diskriminasi.Diskriminasi.errgh.

Okay. Been very damn-long weeks..err..months (maybe) since I wrote the last post here. Oh My Lord. H.E.C.T.I.C months. . .!!!! arrrggghh---- Lot of things happened anyway.., in fact they're a bit too much to remembered now; *sighed* exhausting. ha ha...=)

I just thought about some people..who put their position just like on the top" of everyone. I'm talking about our kinda people here, who lives in our own country. We're living here among all the 'latah' people. Well, like few days ago; I thought it was only me, being a little bit too-sensitive about the show., but then I found that the other local models were feeling the same way too. ^^ There's a Big-different- more like a 'Gap' between us, all crews, including the models as well. We're all came from different hometown & country.
We know the word "Racist", right ?? . . .Yeah, it was more like that. And if I can be honest, I hate them all. What's the problem with us whom waiting for make-up to start, but when we knew (yes we knew it very well) that those international make-up artists were able to do the makeup-thing', they didn't even look at us whom Indonesian yaaa!! Ha! They're just worked it for the other international models. *gross*
I can see their expression' when looking at us. Okay, it might be easy to ignore that.
But can you imagine why were they doing those kind of treat' to us???
>>> Because the 'center-one' (yang artinya sang petinggi, main artist-nya) whom started all of those 'racialist' thing. . .>>> Too bad yah... He should be the one who bring 'peace for all of us. Hmm for me it was enough to gave such respect" on him... =)
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We live in Indonesia, we work here, we got the tittle in here too; no matter how bad our country is, still can we show some respect on ourself? Kok malah men-dewa-kan negara lain... yang jelas2 ngga ada taste" art-nya sama sekali dalam menjalankan fashion show. . . ???
Diskriminasi. Yeapz...
Once again; Too bad.. I am feeling bad for these kinda' people.

Etos kerja...Etos kerjaaa...e.t.o.s---k.e.r.j.a ...!!! *errr*

Bravo young people..!.. 'yang selalu bilang bahwa etos kerja anak muda itu efektif, bagus berencana kritis, bla..bla...bla...' Bravooo... *HA.
Can I tell 'em about something? Well.., Do they understand about what is a Time-Management??
uh... I dunno whether they've ever learned it at school or their parents or anything. But, the point is; I Don't See That IN These Youngster's world.
Yuph.., let me tell you a story. There is this "production/group/community/whateva" booked me for a job; out of province-.
So the schedule was already confirmed since the last Monday, 4 days ago. The day' will be in the middle of some-hectic' schedule (for this week). We already told 'em to give us the full-reports according to the job, everything; tickets for flights,,, accommodation,,,and stuffs. pokoknya kalo ke luar kota persiapan pasti lebih hectic lah ya.
Kenapa yaaa...nggak booking tiket dari 4 hari lalu begitu kita sudah confirm??
It doesn't mean they have power to ruin my own schedules; and switch 'em like they want; Helloooo...I'm working here...eee... Beside they're already know my confirmed-schedule. Arrange' dooong........ =/
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makannya kalo mau kerja ya kerja yg bener dong... sebagai anak muda kan harusnya tunjukin kalo bener2 idealis atau fokus bekerjaaa... mana mana manaaa..?? =p

My-today's Fun-Meeting!!

Hmm.. Back from my-meetings' day today.
Feeling content now..,, dunno what happened. But maybe I should say it is like a refreshing-progress =)... I met my friends on BDI (Buddha Dharma Indonesia) this afternoon and we talked bout many things. *phewwh'..* Cool. They've built an Open-School at 'Kawasan Megamendung, Bogor. I watched the video..and it was such a happy-feelings that I've got.
It made me think about all.. Why can't we do things like that?
Despite all medias or people who said or talked about 'global-warning' only. but these friends of mine (I'm not talking about religion ya), they have started things first.!!
and to be honest it inspired me a lot (and should be the same for others). Such a minor" community that we got here.
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Anyway, I stopped for a while at their place. I even saw them praying as well.
So I thought, how come in here we don't have any groups or community like them? No-need to shout out loud 'bout this; we only need to take care all of these Youth potential people; because they are special; they got skill, they work as well but they're only can hope for everything to live better.

Weewhhh I still have my homework for working out the paper here. ^-^...

Slip of a sickness".

*gosh...'* what a gossiper. this is the start of our poor'tainment-world. Ha..
I know it's a part of the life, risk for us to take by being involved in such an entertainment world. But hey hellows there...I'm always thinking whether those group of 'running & chasing' people" should be called as journalists..?!! ---oops. nope. sorry to say, they don't belong to the job. They can't even explain to us what it is; a journalist??

Can you explain to me is there any special training for all infotainment-journalists?? or maybe the only thing' that they could ever do is just run and chase and waiting to catch--then asking some dumb' question..? ha ha.. then I should say Poor-you guys.
cause y'all don't even know how to help our people to get better, for some point of living.
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If you ask me whether this is such a personal-experiences of mine; well yes it is. Not only me, anyway; but I've been heard all of those 'grumpy' confessions, talking about them (the paparazzi/any kinda thingy').

just a slice' of empathy...

*hmm… Have been gone for some-moments.., found some more things...

When you have to put yourself in one or some situation by yourself; like, you do the things which actually-you’ve been used to do it with other people, but now you have to do it alone. No-companion, just on your own; it must be felt a bit awkward. Need some time to get used to it, and it’s not that simple as turning your head on the other-side. You need that’ patience, supports, and hope. =)

Well I saw her. She’s been trying hard to handle that. *she’s my friend, one of the closest-one’…* by the look on her eyes, me, and us –some of the best-mates- could see the sadness in her. Some of her stories for being such a ‘grown up’ person have been passed by now. She has to get used to this situation. She’s on her own now, working out things by herself to achieve.

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The truth about 'judging' =)

I have one friend of mine, he's a makeup artist & he used to doing my make-up 'thing once a week, for my regular "side-job".
When I first met him I almost ensured myself that he might be just the same...like others. I mean for the 'identity' and one more thing, for his mind or his point of living the world. I thought he was the same like other makeup artists that I know. //wait-don't get me wrong; I'm not gonna talk bout other people's business yah; this is for another topic" ^^//
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I was having myself on a bad-mood that time. Not to mention it was my first day doing the side work., well yess I felt such an awkward' feelings for being there; cos I was really hope that I didn't have to do this, before I change my point of view by took it for my own savings-haha*
That was the time when I knew I was totally wrong. I was being a snobbish one, who thought like I must be the poorest one-in the world. Nobody knows what/how was it feel.
>>> He, is really a He". =p . Yup! He's a man, straight one. I couldn't believe that I almost claimed him for a gay' one; but nope. He really is a man. ha ha! How shameful...

But then again while we're waiting for me to start, me & mom was having chit-chat with him. (well mostly I just heard both of them share things, though =p)
And!
He told us that apparently there's some reason why was he taking job as a makeup artist. His mother, she is sick and need somebody to take care of her. Check up, then Re-check up again; with sort of condition they have; He decided to resign from his main job.
(OhMyGod) He works on an Oil-department at Singapore. He's a Diploma! and he was in his 'so-Fine' position. It's his dream which he always wanted to achieve.
He dedicated himself to take care of his mother; thats why he quited. It was a decision-wise; he said. Guess what;
basically he doesn't know how to do make-up at all; and never in his mind that he'd take the job as his current profession till now.
He has no choice. His closest friend & this is near his house as well; all gave him the same advice.. Make up artist is only for more of his income...to save.
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It was for him too for the first time there. It's a Pressure behind him. *and I swear I knew how it felt*
He told me no-longer after that he realized that this is the life he has to take. Reflected back he knows his mom would needed him too.
By then, he was able to work his job as a makeup artist.
In fact, his previous office has told him for whenever he wants to come back; he's already work. =)
Besides, I just know too..that he's an active-volunteer at UNDP. The way he speak his mind; such a smart persona. Yet he even got another diploma for Medical-development for Animal.!.
Wow... >> I even asked question about taking care of my pet << and he was very kind on giving me lots of advices about Volunteering.
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*gosh.... How shameful I am. This is really true. Don't ever judge any books by it's cover.
It's Totally a Snobbish' thought.
I guess we all can learn from this; I'm sure there'll be another stories there..thousand stories behind somebody's great-life.
and I will keep myself on learning, for sure!! ^-^

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//Track on : " Gabriel by Lamb
" Heaven by Lamb
" Sunrise by Yeasayer //

-hm...gotta pull 'em out of the head I guess..=)-
Looking back 5 years from now, remembering how did I make my decision to reach my dream.
*by the way I'm now in the mid' between all my senior-on modeling- I call 'em all The Mrs'.he he.*
Some of them were asking me back then. again 5 years ago. The question was about what will be my target to achieve; for the future day. I said I wanna be a professional model! ^^
Such a big decision it was; for a 14 years old girl. And was really different than today. Modeling world wasn't as big like nowadays before. People would called it as a hobby; not a profession.
While me when I was in my agency; one of the booker asked the same question. He shocked. haha... 'ha..? keluar dari sekolah formal??..terus mau jadi apa kamu nanti?!'
--I hate him so much that time. =p --
I was only answered "mau jadi model" & then left. God..., how come there's a person like him in this world; and I thought; "hell yeah, he got his diploma right..? well it only led him to be a booker; my-booker!" *hihi... excuse my language*
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It was just one of another grumpy' things. I can tell I often hear those kinda' stories too... But mostly they ended the decision by following the parents'; or just let it flow... some of them confessed, on becoming Nothing.
*phewwh...* How hard it is...to survived; or to speak-their minds out.
Sometime situation could be one of the biggest difficulties as well.
But I guess, there will always be a change in every dream that we wished.. How strong and patient' we are; is the main point. There's always risk in every choice, right?
And to make that choice, we need to be brave-enough, to speak them out.
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Flu....Flu...Flu.......

Gosh---I'm so...sick. Really sick. This Flu got worse. Although I've had 'em since 2 days ago. But it was--FAST!! *betebetebeteee*
I thought I'll never gonna say Hi' again to my 'weakness' since kiddo. =(
but then it appeared yesterday...huhuuuu...'. Tiredness, busy-things to do and think about; that's exactly what made me got this. Uuurrgghh*moody-face*
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And what was that which made my voice-gone away so fast?? --ha ha... My job today! =O guess what, I've this launch D&G show @ Grand Indonesia today. And, it wasn't just like the regular-show. It was a Trunk-Mingling Show. pheeww... Mingle..Mingle..and mingle. We all stood there having ourself chat' with all guests, fashionistas, and some Boss....for.... 2 Hours!! ohMyGod---it was horrible---I'd prefer to go on the catwalk doing 10 outfits than having myself on lobbying. hikhik..

While my voice is already a 'crappy'voice; it became worse and worse because of this kinda show. hiyaaaaa'..... Poor-me. I lost my voice-and it's 85 % total gone!
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Crap" ugly things in my morning timeee.. da da daa.'

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*heegghh..* crap. Kinda bad-start" on a day.
I was awake with my internet still on..and then..!! I read this' message on my posted-wall--it was asking bout my relationship with my Bf. Ouucchhh.. Common... I've been asked for the similar' question like that lately; "although I know that this is the risk', but I'm trying to get my peace of mind hereeee...
//we're still together yesss dahleeenk"... =p But it's usual to have such problem like that. I mean, those crappy' infotainments are just the same--they like to have some gossip (mostly the bad' one) and..unfortunately, on the management-side, most of 'em are also like to use this kinda situation" to promote their New artist/talents!!//
*well; I've shut myself-up for this. ^^*
I just don't get it. We're minding our own business., just because one-another having the same business of our own, people just loved to make fun of that. *pffft!*
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If maybe they're (all kinda' public figure) really have something or in the middle of somewhere'; why can't people just let it?! It's okay to report that on the news/entertainment-channel; but it will be very nice if they just report it for once' a headline. Not interrupting their whole-activities and bugging and spying and interrogating all friends&relatives!!!
*Holy--Geez' I'm staring to get boiled"..=p*

pheww... Okie dokie..., I'm getting myself off now. Gotta go gotta gooo....on working =)
There are more important things to do...than to minding the crappy-things out" ^o^
Just like The Beattles 'song--- Let it be...Let it be..Let it be" (hihihi...) =)

Mood's Rep--!! =)

Spend my day on managing all things in mind. Sleep. (finally I have some time to rest"..)

//Track play : 'Ruth Marie' by Mark Kozelek
'Aku' by SORE
'Closing' by Philip Glass//

Hmm.. Love the song so damn...much!! =)
A bit too drama maybe; but I dunno, I just feel this kind of support' when I listen to these song. Talking bout music, I've been live with them all since I was kiddo. For me, they're like -representing your mood. Yet sometimes they can help me think for what have happened through days.

Okay. Enough for this. >>> Ouuwhh but this 'Ruth Marie' song's very...ironic!! minimalist-sad song. hik*... =( makes me wanna cry and share out my empathy"...huahuaa =p heeggh. >>>
I'll be working this dawn--I mean yes; dawn in the morning! at 04.00 am.ha ha.

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Oh! this is one of my picture yesterday nite. ^^ Me with Laura Subaki" (Basuki =p) came to teteh Nia's birthday & party bash' at Ciputat --it was somewhere.....far from everywhere! hi hi..
and we are the youngest hereeee... =D he he he...
and we were home; plus Tipsy!! ^o^
so this is a real "BarBuk" for both of us to remembered!!

waiting..waiting...and..waiitttiiinggg...*d'oh..* T_T

Hiyaass' here from Surabaya =p hi hi...'
I'm stuck here waiting for my makeup to start. Well.., I guess the soul of wedding' is still around! ^^ Bridal show. yah.., can't do anything.. it's part of our job (as a model), this is like; we can see the difference clearly. It is obvious!! ha ha.. at Jakarta the system that we have on every event (including Fashion show) have been running. at least fine laah.. =) But for the other cities, he he... =p yah...beginilah yaa.... berusaha maklum aja dhe.... Rehearsal ballroom ngga ada sound system-nya, AC belum boleh dinyalain--super Hot' here!!--, and for the complete session; blocking ekspresi gaya jalan, tetap harus Hyper... ^o^ hahahaa..*
//If this was happening to me years before, I would've been in a very bad-mood, pissed off, or crying after the show, and I called my mom-bothering her with all those grumpy' things of mine. *obvious banget anak-anak nya,, =p*//
But it won't be like that anymore. as mom has told me; we have to learn by the experiences we have had. Learn to grow-up and act more mature.
--hmm.. I might haven't act the right thing yet or being mature enough; but at least I became more appreciate' with the people involved.--

--a slip of thoughts'--

There are times when I feel like a bit 'too-much' on working. There will always be some things we don't like in every job that we love. Like all the wise-men said; 'This is Life.., sometimes up, sometimes down..'

I've seen people having difficulties like this. Some handle it easily, some got themselves a bit too far.. It's a rough world we got here. Sometimes I find myself on hearing their confession. About truth, what lies behind their smiling-faces. I did nothing but silence and smile; reminding myself that sometimes I've been in the same position as well =)
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Unique things happen here. haha..

My Story Of me and My Bestfriend =)...

She's my friend. My close friend. I've seen her today. Something, felt a bit 'weird' on her. I don't know what it is..
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She's a young lady, some fresh teenage youngsters just like others (young-adult). All I know is, she lives in this Glamorous & Fame-world as well. Like mine. She's among those crowd. Works hard. nope; very..hard, for her Family. -but I know she does that for herself too-
For her passion; pride; her own glory'... Each time we met, I can say that she's trying to hide her real' feelings to everybody; even her bestfriend and her boyfriend. Shame..?..Nope. She has learned, although she's still learning it until now.
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She was on her shift' to work. at one place, a place that I would like to called People's Fame. She worked on a night shift; after midnight; I mean. I can see that she's kinda tired but she has to do the job. well-the job's only for 3-5 minutes tough'. *** I remembered, she used to hate the job. She doesn't even has any heart for it. But luckily she has a very supportive family. That's why at one night she was trying to accept her destiny; and believed that it was the best that she can do for this year..
Today she was tired; I guess. She's a bit confused' on doing the job. Basically she's ok. But I know that she was feeling bothered by that. Her own mistake.
She's made a Big Commitment. For some people, she's a bubbly-easy going' person; it's odd to see her as a person who actually loved being on a silence, thoughtfully.
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I just Hope she's going to be....tougher..
I'm feelin' proud of her as well. ^^

I Do'// a Real-wed?? or a Fake-one??? huh? huh??

I'm so pleased today.!! ^^ Got more plus thing' on what I always called-Professional-
Okay. There was a Lil' bit of Down-mood for it, but after all it's still fine.
*breath..*=== I started to work by 7 am today. Me & mom drove to Sultan Hotel, to Executive Club. I had a shooting & photo shoot for Wedding's commercial. It wasn't for a TV-commercial; but it will appear on Cinema (its like commercial' before you start watching the movie-=p), and in their Showroom, brochure, kinda that. Actually it is a Wedding-Ring. Hmm..yummy^^
At first I wasn't expecting much for today; cause the plan was we'll take the procession at the garden; an outdoor shoot! and it was raining. *eekkk* Oh Nooo.... I thought it would be a long...day today. Believe me-it was raining hard in the morning-
Luckily we asked for a 'Pawang-Hujan' to handle the rain, at least for a moment..well we couldn't expect much from him cause the rain was very heavy right?'=). So- Mister "Pawang" told us that he's gonna handle the weather but only until it reach 3 o'clock pm. Whoaa... it means we have to get hurry. We decided to skipped our Lunch-time in order to catch the time. *Sigh*

It really worked! The weather was changed suddenly into a daylight. So fast I guess. Cool.
But unfortunately, Mr.'Pawang' did it a little bit too-well. ha. The weather was turned into a really HOT weather! Oh My God we were suffering in our Bridal gown & suit ^^! and the sad thing for me is; My skin got burned by that. I really didn't expect that it'd be damn-hot. Not only me, though.. Richard-the Groom, and the other extras; we were getting Red on our skin ha ha haaa.... Funny. All I could do was wishing for the shoot to be done!! =p
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Above all, it was really fun. I'm happy doing my job. I'm grateful cause I did it professionally., and serious. And the best thing for me today is when I didn't care about my tan/reddish' skin by the Sunny super hot daylight" =p; but only focused on my duty' there^^, as a model* a bride I mean-hihi- we are teamwork here. If we do our job well, then we'll finished right on time.., and we did it! he he...
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*I can't wait to see it, must be very funny-and also odd' for me cause it was like a real-wedding day!! hi hi hi.. Plus! I've got the picture of me & the groom for the pre-wed', and the Certificate of Marriage as well!!!!! ^o^ wuhahahaaa...hohooo... I wonder what's it gonna be..* ^^

talking bout some things I don't like...err'

After 4 days on working; finally I.am.getting.exhausted. *hhhaaaahh..* >>> well let me explain bout' the exhausted thing's meant. It's just because these days there were things that we-me-I really have to fix. Some of them are part of my job;of course..=) and there are other things that also very important for the very next day--so we called it our step by step 'project' for the year.
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I remembered last couple of days ago (while we had shows to do), I was having a conversation with my friends at the backstage. We talked bout all things happened in our job-modeling-. Ha... Thank God it's not only me who sometimes got the 'bad-mood' on my own job; so..I'm not alone ha ha. When (some other times) we have to deal with those kinda weirdo' makeup or -whatkindofhairstyleisthis-; usually all we could do was being silence; or..looking at each other's makeup/hairdo; then after finishing makeup we're gonna start to laughed it. There's nothing we could do, well sometimes if it's not to messed (the makeup) some of us will fix/add it. =p naughty-yes..but it was just for our confidence!^o^ except--for the hairdo. Especially on Bridal-show; whooaaa.....there's nothing we can do about it. If it's a messed, then let it be messed-up like that. Otherwise we're just wasting our time trying to have it fixed. hi hi...

Well it's true what my parents said to me; there are things we don't like in every kind of job that we love. It will always be like that. But if we keep being good, stay in our way, then everything will be fine in the end. =)

>>>Now Playing : "All Bjork's album"--addicted once again--

God. It was awesomeee.. ^o^ I watched her concert. Bjork!! Oowh--- I've been waiting for such a long time for her to come!! Ha ha.. I'm playing her songs over and over again since then =D hi hi...
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For Indonesia--Jakarta; It was good. Great lighting!! I just stared at her as I watched the lights playing round-and round! aaaawwww..-So good!! Although she was sing for about 10 songs only.. Quite-Fast..but still not enough for the most of us (including me^^)
Oh-But I'm so happy cause she sang 'Pagan Poetry' & 'Joga' there!!! he he he...
I was hoping she would sing us her 'Isobel'.., but it didn't exist' till the end of the show. =(
But; after all! I'm satisfied of her concert today!! *well for myself-I don't really like being at any concert,though..=p Cause yesss it is too crowded.* But for Bjork I knew she was different, unique and weirdo kinda people-so... I was hoping there won't be too many people coming.. >> he he.. Wrong. Right after the show was about to start; I realized that lots n lots n lots of people are coming through!!! =O hahahaaa....
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~~COOL =)

Back again--after stayed alive for 24 hours yesterday!! hoaaa..

--Hmm...-- Write this' in the mid-of my shoot day =) >>> Phew... Yesterday I was totally having my day off! after 24 hours Total-awake and worked. Huah! ^^ ha ha.. We finished our Photo-folio' session at Eric's factory. It became a studio there ^o^ -->Yippiiee....

It was from 9 am to the next 9 am on the next day! We finito the shoot at almost 3 am; then I have to run to one of our TV-station at 3.30 >>> and started on air at 5. Finished; I was reached home at 6; well I didn't feel sleepy at all so I reached my car then Goooo to church. (owh--hey-I'm trying to be a nice girl here!! he he =p)
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Hi hi... I did feel sleepy during the mass. I was hurting myself back then to stayed-alive! ^^ heuuuu.....*
The only thing that I remembered is; I was fell asleep after reached home at about 9.30 am. Huaaammmhh...... It was yummy---before my bat's brother called me at 1 pm- he asked bout' his book. =)
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So.... Now I'm enjoying myself looking at the pictures that we've shoot last day. And waiting for the photo-shoot to start!! Bubye ^v^--

Kiong-Hee..... Rat's Year Arissseee... :)

"Happy Chinese New Year Dear All...!!! -Gong Xi fat Choi!- ^o^"
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~Kiong hee..Kiong hee; Angpao Na Lai.??~ yeap that's what I always been saying to everybody today; well pretty-much hoping that I'll get it'- bwahahaahaa... Mimiii..
I spent most of the day on chatting with mom today. I met my grandma' for wished her a 'kiong-hee', and as usual she made us Misoa & Babi Kecap' ^^- Yummy... A hope for a Live Long and Prosperity ..=)
>> Then we're carry on our chat again. As today's one of our 40 days-on fasting- for Paskah, so I choose to control my emotion more. Hope for the best to be wise & stable..hi hi.
We talked about all those job things.., all the meetings that we've had.., also all those payment' thing. *which quite made me remembering back about my stress & anemia things; ha.* We discussed about reality here, there, everywhere.., even we did have a small argue' back there. =)
Since there's only two of us here-brother has moved to the new house; this Lil' house turned a bit silence.. he.. Used to hear my brother's silly-jokes everyday ^^
Anyways.., today is a social-reality life. I have friends (and my close friends) chatted with me about life. Interesting; cause they teach me on how to face the rough-life with a strong heart. I'm facing 'them too here.
Just to remind myself that I'm not alone, me & my family are not alone on facing this chaotic' rough-life.. he... =)

Hwuaaah.. Terrible Headache! ='(

Really..really hectic. Hoossh..' Apparently there won't be any speech-for Eric's Exhibition. We thought it'd be too..formal (like government-people always do) =p.

So we changed the speech' into comment-only. And- more job for me is; regarding to Eric's plan on publishing his book of exhibition & photography, I have to write some 'Forewords' about how or why or hope for my bat's blothel =p Heeeh??--DeadLine pula!!! I only got 2 days left. Gosh..catch for some inspiration now..
>> Beside that; there's still more things on deadline. We did technical-meeting yesterday after-show; talked about my concept for photo shooting; targets, point of view, and stuffs.. Ughh I had this terrible headache and it even got worse by the dawn; *of course it is, I'm not sleeping at all heuuu..*

I'm a bit nervous. yep. nervous of many things here in mind. Let's see... heading up for the next-project, anything for the good reason of the future., he...it created some 'weirdo' feelings on me. ^^ Hope for the best; prepare for the worst. That's what my teacher had ever told me. ^^
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*owh--almost forgot. Mbak Amy sent me these photos (the other one I've posted on the side bar^^) this morning. Didn't realized that it has been out on the magz already. hi hi...*
.Captured by 'Marsio'.

counting on days...*year of earth-rat =p*

.My friend shared some stories with me. She said that this up-coming year (she's Chinese, so she celebrates Chinese New Year.) will be a hard year. Yesterday we were talking bout' lots n lots of things. *while we're waiting for the dinner-show of Arantxa Adi's private birthday party to be started--what more could we do except having those conversation??--haha.*
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We started dinner-very late. It was almost 10 pm last night. Well we can understand that; it's been raining so hard yesterday..floods everywhere; and of course- super damn-traffic on the road. And it was Friday! =x
ehm.. to be honest; I kinda felt a bit anxious; um..weird. =p >>>Of course I am; we were just sit on the table and chat' and lobbying and waiting for the next food to come. (ergh-I hate table manners--^^). Luckily we're together-all the models. I mean I'd prefer on doing the fashion show on the stage; than waiting in front of the Dine-table together. ^v^ heuu... too shy for it ^^'.
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Finito; drove myself home; and cleaning up makeup. Remembering what my friend has said to me- I agreed with her; this year is different. This year is harder., more complicated., more additional program to do., and tougher.
I guess we're all gonna face 'em this year. Some said if we keep being good, follow the path, hoping and praying and wishing for the best -despite working hard for sure- Everything will be fine =)
*hwaah.. I've been hoping for that too- hummpph..' susahnya keep being good;;hi hi..=p*

gotta go!! Gotta go!!! In the mid-of makeup for gathering show now. (their doing my 'eyelashes; putting the fake' one to go.. Ouch! sticky!! hi hi hi.. catch-ya-laytah" ^o^